feeling lost broken and useless just want to be happy

You hit it right on the head, you are depressed, suffering from anxiety, feeling lonely. You have come to a good place to vent and get some ideas.
Sometimes doing something as silly as cleaning out your purse, or a drawer can distract your mind from thoughts gone wild.
Exercise, if you run or something like that will help.
Deep breathing, when anxious people, tend to breath shallow, and carbon dioxide builds up, then they don't get enough oxygen, and feel like they can't breath. Also a problem in the car with the windows up.
Maybe this, take a nice shower or bath, shampoo your hair, put something clean on. Lay down on your bed, with some music on, maybe ear phones, do the slow deep breathing, "smell the roses, blow out the candles", visualize it. Think of the number 300, count back 3, 297, count back 3, 294, gets harder, have to concentrate, the object is to slow down and change your thoughts.
Make an appt at the doctor. Seriously, you sound, upset and depressed. Need some help. The blood tests tell the doctor alot. He can advise you from there.
Call the doctor.
Hope that helps a little.
You can vent here whenever you want, say whatever you want. ts OK. People here care.

Issy,

Maybe you're luck is changing.  You snagged two of the really good ones already on HW.  Cannot say enough nice things about Sandy and Jamie.  And there are many more here like them.

Jamie's right - depression and anxiety bite. 

I'm still trying to get through an anxiety attack as I write this, and it has me really messed up, so I too understand what you are going through.

I've started a poll in a thread.  You might want to vote yourself.  I voted for anxiety being worse than depression for the reason that anxiety attacks really affect me physically on all levels.  I don't have anxiety as often as depression, and it is shorter in duration, but it hits like a hammer, and if I couldn't get the anxiety under control, I'm certain I would snap before long.

Hi Jonathan,

That takes a lot of practice. I have found that grounding yourself while breathing right really helps. Plus I take xanax. Convincing yourself I would think to tell yourself it is just fear that is causing the anxiety and try to overcome that.

Kitt is a good one to help with the anxiety issues. She moderates the anxiety forum and that might be a better place for you to find the answers that you are looking for. So take a few minutes and check it out. It is Anxiety and Panic.

Anxiety can have many physical symptoms. It can take the shape of many diseases, such as diabetes. I had glucose intolerance from stress related anxiety and was just under the level of having to take medication. I was lucky. It was diet controlled. But once I got rid of the stress the anxiety went away and my blood sugars became normal. Some of us have anticipatory anxiety. There are many different faces.

I hope that this helps some, there will be others along with advice.

Hugs, Karen

PS Just wanted to add a trick that I learned with the breathing.  I breath in through the nose, and out through the mouth.  It is called smelling the roses and blowing out the candles.  It really slows your breathing and heartrate down.  Practice this when you get an anxiety attack.