Lost. Alone. Forgotten.

I am so glad you posted here.  People are messed up - there's no doubt of that, and you are caught in a situation that is really difficult.  I feel bad for you because I know how situations can harm one's self worth and confidence and their ability to get any joy out ouf life.  

I can't tell you why no one cares "out there," but be assured we care in here.  There are people who do care "out there," but you have to find them.   But here, you don't have to look far for caring and kindness.  Why we care here is because we do understand what you are going through because most of us have gone through it ourselves and are still going through it.

That your parents would not follow through with what is an obligation (from my point of view) really bothers me.  I'm angered by that, in fact.  But let's not deal with them - let's deal with you - because you are important and your health and well being are foremost important.

Don't hate yourself.  You are not the cause of this.  Don't consider yourself to be any less of a person for any reason at all.  I know that's hard to do - to think that way when you have so many things hurting you, but try your best.

I'm not an advice person for resources because I'm still new to HW - there are others far more versed in where to go and where to seek help than I am.  I would think an important step for you though would be to have the corrective surgery that you never got, and I know that might seem like light years away, but I think it's really critical because if you can't eat properly - that's just not right at all.

Maybe others here can guide you to resources that could help there as well.

Nevertheless, I am here to listen, and I hope that helps in some way.

See - someone who already cares about you - and I've only known you for less than an hour. 

Scythia