oldspeak
Welcome to HealingWell. I have read that book and I hope you are not identifying with the villian in this story. The author has taken a grim, media-exploited subject and fashioned from it a story that is both tragic and full of light and grace.
Try not to over-think when reading as you are not a villian or you would not be here asking these questions.
Learn to love yourself. "You, yourself, as much as anybody else in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection." ~ Buddha
I wish you peace,
Kitt