does this matter?

Struggling with depression is hard DelRae. There is no lieing about that. What you have been facing and will continue to face may end up seeming like an uphill battle. Are your medications helping you any? There are many different kinds as you probably already know. It took me quite a few before I found what worked for me. I also found meditation and controlled breathing exercises works well also to help fight it. If your meds don't seem to be working, talk to your doctor about an adjustment or possibly a switch. You shouldn't have to feel down all of the time. Though feeling good all the time isn't natural. We do have down days, even when we feel good.

Things matter. It just doesn't feel fullfilling at this time. And you probably aren't getting much gratification out of life when you are depressed. Continue posting and know everybody here does care. The members here are very kind and compassionate. And they do support eachother. Today is a hard day because most of us are celebrating Thanksgiving and the forum is kind of slow. But you will get posts on this thread eventually.

I wish for you a blessed holiday.

Hugs, Karen