lost

everytime i think i see a light at the end of the tunnel it goes dark again. i honestly think i am in hot water. i meet with my district manager tomorrow, i feel as if my job is on the line. i cant change the surgery, i dont want to wait til middle of next year to get my surgery and something else will come up to keep me from it, but they are pushing me to do it. i found out the pregnant manager can go anytime, and i feel bad but should i have to put my life on hold because of it. i cant breath, the drainage is keeping my throat constantly dry, my head hurts, im gagging and im miserable but yet i have to put my life on hold. im gonna try to get my ENT to get me a note stating it is necessary for me to get this done.

i cant sleep, darn ADD, but i think i have come up with a plan and i hope that my district sees a goodness in that. it will mean me working fourteen hour days for the two days before my surgery but that will give two days off to the other managers and then christmas time we are closed. i can see if i can get relief from another store one day and it will be covered.

well my manager made it out like they werent gonna approve of the time off so i went and got the doctors excuse and then i went to the meeting. turns out its because my manager took it as me demanding the time off when all i said was i need to have surgery and it will be december 22. so she saw the note(i think she wasnt gonna approve but when she seen the note she changed her tune real quick.) i showed her my plan that i would be willing to do. so i called my manager and apologized for the way it may of come out and told her what i was willing and she said that week was already covered and they were worried bout the following week so i told her that i would work that wednesday if the doctor says i can and then work all the way through sunday. i cant complain if i am gonna get the week off for my surgery. i went in prepared and it worked out. thank God.