well, I dont know how to start this. I guess i should tell you what my father is like before i tell you my problems.. First off, Anytime my dad can put me down he will. Anything i do, i do it wrong or its not good enough. For Most of my life i have been distant from my father. he lives with me but I am usally in my room avoiding him. I have 6 half siblings. all same father but different mother. There all over 20, im the youngest.
He treats them like there queens and kings and i barely get noticed..
he usally comes straight home and gets on the computer and ignores me. everything i ask him i usally have to ask him 3 more times before he answers. He always says i dont love him and i hate him and that im a low life. for one, im fourteen? so what does he expect from me..? I always try to over acheive with him, I try to be the best.. anything to have a father that loves me.. i guess i can say my dad abuses me and my mother, everyday switch house to house between his and my aunts. He throws, yells, calls names, threatens, and also says he will commit if i leave with my mom. He once came down to my aunts house with a belt and threatened to beat me. :(..
I cry almost 8 times a month because of my father.. Well,
I guess my problems are is because i feel like im picking up his traits. everytime i get mad i throw or break or hit something, i get mad over everything.. and also I call people names(my mother mosetly) and i regret it so much :( its like i cant control it. i thought about so many times to get away from everything, like everyone hates me. :(.. i need some advice or help.. sorry for it being so long.
I am sorry sweetie, but I had to take the word suicide out of your post. We aren't allowed to discuss it. Hugs, Karen
Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 2/28/2011 5:07:18 AM (GMT-7)