ok I'm a new member here because I thought that I could find someone who might give me a word of two of encouragement and maybe a solution to my problem. about
2 months ago I started to get that depressed feel but I thought it was only because of the lousy weather. Even when the sun came out for a couple of weeks and I want on vacation i still could not shake the feeling of just plain despair. I sat in bed one night as my thought raced and decided to go down stairs and just type out my thoughts on a word document. This is a summary of what I said: I am a overweight 15 year old who has "friends" that would like nothing better than to criticize me all day. At first I thought that the mocking would go away and it was just a phase. I was wrong and they were relentless. At the end of each day I looked forward to going home like all kids who go to school do but when I thought about
it, I realized that i had nothing at all to look forward to. My parents are divorced (whose aren't these days) and my life generally sucks. When I sat there thinking about
going home I also thought about
what I am. My siblings are all extremely athletic but i was the only one who tried all the sports, put all my heart and soul into them, and still failed. I have tried all of the sports but none of them suit me. I not only get crap from my brother and sister for that but my "friends". My whole school is athletic as well. The school revolves around them and they go to sate for every sport every year and almost aways win. I just can't find a way out of it. I visited a psychiatrist and all he said to my mom was that I was going through a rough time because of the divorce. It was 2 years ago that they divorced and I got over it but I still miss seeing my dad when I come home. I don't like to talk to people face to face about
it because they all tell me I'm just trying to get attention. this is my last hope for help. I have tried getting out more but i have no friends that will not mock me and my family is just as bad. Ask yourself, Who do you turn to when your own mother doesn't believe you? I thought about
o but it is a "permanent solution to a temporary problem" like the other websites called it. I see no other way but if someone proposes something that helps, I'm all ears.
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