i think it is real important for you to find someone you can talk with. i am very sorry for the loss of your friend. do you have a school counsellor that you could see? also you need to find a way of getting to the dr. for an assessment, i feel it important for you to be assessed by a medical professional. it is possible that you may require some medications also. depression sux, but there is ways of managing it. more people will come on and give you further info soon.
tiger, you have been brave coming on, so well done. keep being brave and think about getting help for you. i sending much healing compassion your way. please remember that you are indeed a unique individual with gifts and talents unique to only you-and you are allowed to ask for help. i know you are there for your mum, but you need help too, and that is totally ok. we are here for you, we care here. jamie