Hey I was wondering about some other odd idiosyncracies that I have, I'm not sure if they're significant enough to bring up to my physician. Ever since I was a kid I have been poking my gums with needles when I'm bored or nervous and suck the blood, sometimes I put in salt and tobasco sauce and dig that in to cause more pain and I'm wondering does anyone else have that impulse? It didn't occur to me that this might also be a problem but it's gotten better with Paxil( I'm on 20mg), I have this fear of shutting various body parts in my bathroom door when I get out of the shower, thinking of how painful that would be, I don't know but I can't get that thought out of my mind. When I'm driving I have this fear that the stearing wheel will fall off and I can't get the thought of getting into a car accident and what it would feel like to be all smashed at once, what it would sound like. I play out various scenarios while driving and I don't know if this is like a nervous problem or what. These things have gotten a little better with Paxil, I don't know these thoughts are silly and excruciating. I can't stop thinking about how much female mutilation would hurt if I had it and if I accidentally slammed my female parts in the bathroom door how much that would hurt. That actually keeps me up at night sometimes wincing, I can't stop replaying in my mind these things happening to me. For some reason, in my own little world it could actually happen I mean I know logically how am I gonna slam this or that in the door but emotionally I can't stop thinking about how much it would hurt - Anyone know if this is worth mentioning to my BHR case manager or am I just tripping over silly thoughts?
Post Edited (condoleezaiscool) : 3/12/2005 12:41:25 PM (GMT-7)