This is my first post to this website or any site like it. When I look back the last 10 years, there isn't alot that I can say I've done right. At the time when my decisions were made they seemed great. Soon after, I was wrong. I mostly go day by day with a fake smile on my head. It's not an issue that I don't have a close connection with my family or friends, I just sometimes feel alone. I am married, just had a newborn boy, and you think life would be great. I don't have the energy to do anything anymore. I once had the desire to excel at everything, but now I second guess every decision I make. I would rather sit and stare at a wall then do anything right now. My life seems like an emotional circle that keeps spinning and never stops.