Hi, I'm new on healingwell.com.
I'm 15, and used to live with my mother, who tormented me constantly.
Now I know that you all probably think, 'Oh, another teen angry at her parents.' I know every other adult does.
But I've been living with my loving dad for over a year and suddenly, all of these pent up emotions towards my mother just pop up.
I'm an artist and a writer, which used to be my source of stress relief. Now I cant put a paintbrush to canvas without drawing a crying girl who wishes she was free.
I can't write without it turning into a personified expirience of my own.
Here is an extract of one of my stories. I was orignally writing an action/romance and it turned into this.
"'I never did anything of the sort, you liar.'
'But you did, mother. I only wanted to be accepted by you.'
'But nobody cares if you live or die. You're only a teenager, a speck in a world of giants."
It only gets worse.
Now, I might sound like a sulk who needs to stop being a wuss, but she used to do terrible things to me.
Hitting me or threatening to kill herself was an average day after school for me.
I'm always told that everything gets better at the end, and if it isn't better, it isn't the end.
But what if I don't have that light at the end of the tunnel?
I'm a straight A student, I have a loving dad and three adoring little brothers and all I want is to be able to paint something that doesn't remind me of the worst three years of my life.
I just need somebody to talk to.....I want to be me again.
Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 6/2/2011 8:35:37 PM (GMT-6)