i need help

Hello, I'm new here and i need help. I just need some help with doctors. I don't have insurance and I'm not diagnosed with anything. I'm a hypochondriac first of all so anything i think i have means nothing to me but i really think i have problems. Is there a free mental health clinic online that i can get diagnosed through?? I'm an INTP and very introverted so I'm really scared to ask for help! I know that i push everyone away from me. My daughters mom just left me because of it. Now i cant see my daughter everyday i cant sleep and when i do i have nightmares. I feel like the guy from "The Machinist". I don't want to wake up like that one day and say "what happened to my life?". I don't feel like I'm in control of anything that i do. I just sit in my head and watch myself and when I'm by myself that's when I'm in control. It scares me, i don't black out or anything i just feel like I'm on autopilot. When I'm angry i can't control my temper at all. I need help before i end up locked up in a padded cell!! I create my own reality and reject the truth for as long as possible, that really scares me because i never realize it until I'm forced to see what really happened. Well I'm done rambling, does anybody know about a free online clinic that i can get help from??