Depression and my life

fearfully

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Joined : Jun 2011

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Posted 6/9/2011 7:43 PM (GMT 0)

Hi everyone, I haven't yet posted in the depression yet. But hey I'm a 28 yr. old female with a 2 year old son and married. I have been terribly miserable for the past month. Anyways, I have been to so many doctors and finally they have told me I have depression and anxiety. Well I know that depression is different for everyone. I don't know what to do. I keep having these terrible thoughts that will not go away. I'm so down feeling I have no energy at all. I don't even want to clean house or cook or anything. I started smoking again and been having needs for alcohol. Well my 2 year old asks me "Mommy? ok?" And I say yes baby. But i'm really not. I have withdrawn from everyone. Can't seem to cope at all. I want to be ok for my little boy. I don't have any friends bc I can't make them. I feel like a sad person and I just cry all the time. My husband does and doesn't understand how I feel. It bothers me bc he is almost the only person I have except for my son but i'm not going to talk with my 2 yr old like that. Can any of you please tell me how you are coping with your depression? I don't know how to cope with this. I feel like my marriage and family is tearing apart over this. I love my husband so much. A lot of times I tell myself he deserves better than me. I can hardly remember the last time we had fun together. I wish it was back the way it was when I was actually sorta happy. atleast.:(

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Posted 6/9/2011 8:37 PM (GMT 0)

Hi Fearfully,

It truly sounds like you have depression. Have any of the doctors said anything like putting you on medication or mentioned counseling? Counselling can really help, and with that you might not need meds. Are you letting the doctors know how actually bad you feel? I am surprised thaty haven't tried something to help you.

When we are depressed, we don't think very much of ourselves. Don't think that you aren't good enough or that your husband deserves better, because that isn't true. You sound like a wonderful person and I know that your husband loves you very much, but he probably doesn't understand what you are going through.

For my depression, I take medications that I get from my psychiatrist. And I go to counseling to a psychologist. I also try to walk a lot. As it clears my head and is good exercise. That helps me too. I also take vitamin D3 because that helps me to feel better too. Right now my depression is in remission due to the antidepressants. I also take anti anxiety meds and a mood stabilizer. But that doesn't mean that you will need as much medication as I do. You may only need one pill if you need medication at all.

I hope that you are proactive about this. Coming here was a good step in the right direction. I am glad that you have joined us. Know that here you will get support and advice from other members. And it is nice just to know that you aren't alone in your struggles. That always helps.

Do keep posting and know that we all care.

I hope that you feel better soon.

Hugs, Karen

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