Hello, I just really needed some help on this issue I've been having
Within the last 3 years of my life I've been diagnosed and suffering from GAD (general anxiety disorder) and clinical depression. This is a constant struggle for me to undergoe and it's beginning to affect my life in ways I've only, dreadfully, imagined. I've been with my boyfriend for 2 years, in fact our anniversary is this week. My bf is kind, intelligent, self sacrificing, happy, caring, supportive and all around a wonderful person that I had been madly in love with for the last two years of our relationship. And then something happened. I'm not even sure what it was, but suddenly it seemed I felt nothing. Nothing towards him, I didn't feel 'love' I can't even remember what that feels like in the present moment. I've been feeling awful, just terrible for feeling this way about him seeing as he is such a sweet guy who's madley in love with me. We've talked about our futur together and it all seemed so perfect to me before, we have many, many things in common. He's my best friend but ontop of feeling nothing for him, I'm also feeling no attraction whatso ever. My interest in sex has gone out the window, I feel disgusted with everything and everyone. I don't find myself attractive, I don't find him attractive. Nothing. I just feel like nothing and it's the worst feeling in the world. I cry myself to sleep every night.
I've been considering breaking up with him lately but it's killing me to even think it knowing how good of a match we were (and hopefully still are!) and how much I know deep down behind the pain I love him very much. I'm terrified this will end in us breaking up, is this all my anxiety and depression talking??? Any advice is appreciated.
SIDE NOTE: I have been going to therapy and I'm on meds but nothing seems to be working. I eat very well and exercise 3 times a week with short walks in between days.
Post Edited (jazz92) : 6/17/2011 10:50:29 AM (GMT-6)