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Cherish

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Joined : Jul 2011

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Posted 7/3/2011 8:57 PM (GMT 0)

Hi everyone

Glad I came across this supportive site.

Taking meds for depression and panic attacks - also for low thyroid.

I am tired all of the time. Dr. said I have fatigue markers in my blood test.

Currently taking synthroid, zoloft, wellbutrin, tranxene.

I have had panic attacks since I have been a child, and the depression has always been with me - a cloud hanging over my head.

At home there is a lot of care-taking for my dad, my husband handles it well, I am feeling very trapped. I can't seem to go with the flow. We have been here 24-7 for over five years dealing with so many problems. I do well with the medical aspects, maybe that is why I take things harder, I am talking with the doctors about what we need to do for dad.

Then there is me...no freetime. Even if I get it, I don't feel it, my stomach is always just scared of what is next.

My husband tries so hard to get me to do what will make me happy. I am glad he is still hanging in there with me.

We enjoy getting out just the two of us. Honestly, I also have social anxiety....makes holidays tough. As well as celebrations, I feel embaressed with my weight and talking to people. Again I can't go with the flow, I get nervous. I sometimes feel he deserves so much better.

I have been reading your board about zoloft and weight gain...hmm...

My mom passed over twenty years, parents have had soooo many surgeries. Taking care of dad is getting overwhelming. Don't think I can sleep at night if he were in a nursing home, and we really can't afford it.

I know I have a lot going on, but I can honestly say, the meds help, but I am nowhere near being happy. (I have gone through counseling)

I am wondering in changes in meds will help?

I am still looking for answers. Looks like a nice group here. Any advice?

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Posted 7/4/2011 12:57 AM (GMT 0)

Hi Cherish,

Welcome to the HealingWell Depression forum. I am glad that you found us. You will get a lot of support here. And that is what HealingWell is all about.

I know that you said that you went through counseling. Why did you stop? Have you thought about going back. I always had a hard time just going with the flow of things, but now that I am older, I can do that. I got fibromyalgia about eight years ago. And even though it is painful and I feel exhausted, I learned to just go with the flow of things because that is the only way to live this way. You have to learn to be in the now. Not to worry about the future or past. That comes with practice. But I know that you can learn to do that.

As far as your father goes. There is help for him financially if it becomes to hard to make it at home. He could probably get medicaid if he had to go to a nursing home. I had to put my grandmother in one. It was hard for me to admit that I couldn't take care of her anymore. But there might come a time where going in a nursing home becomes in his best interest. You will know when that time comes. You might want to think about getting gaurdianship and conservator ship over him. If it gets hard for him to make his own decisions. If you do have to put him into nursing home, don't feel guilty about it, you will be doing what is best for him. You can only do so much on your own. Sometimes they need better care than we are capable of giving, and that doesn't mean that you failed or anything like that. It is just the way the situation is.

I hope that you start feeling better soon. I think you need to learn to love yourelf, you might need some med changes. I would try more counseling first, if you aren't going now. They can help you not only with yourself, but with some advice on your father too.

Best wishes to you Cherish. I hope that this has helped in some small way. Keep posting and know that we all care about you.

Hugs, Karen

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