Dont know if i want to live

I get feelings just about everyday about why my life is like this and why do i have all these problems and i just dont know what the point is of me living like this. All day and all nite in pain, im scared to die but this just feels like torture to me to have to be like this for the rest of my life. Everybody around just seems like they are moving on with their lives and moving on fast and im left behind. i cant work, i cant sleep, i cant eat. im just fading away. i try to stay positive, but it hasnt been working. Dont know what to do anymore.

Thanks for having the courage to share your story... I have been there. It really does help to talk to someone about it, even if you feel that they can't help you. All I can say is that tomorrow will be better! Keep on being strong. Know that you are the only one that can handle what you're going through- YOU are strong enough. But you also need to be strong enough to share your burden with someone you trust. PLease== talk to someone; even if it's just us on these forums. {{{HUGS}}}

Thank you DM. Ur prayers are welcome. Im still at a crossroads in my life. Dont know weather i want to live or die. Dont have anybody to talk to, they dont want to hear my problems or try to understand what im going thru. I love my family and friends but when im in pain and need to talk, no ones there. My physical and mental problems have turned me into a hermit and i can tell people dont want to be around me. And that really hurts. I hate nite time the most, its the loneliest and scariest. Dont sleep at all, i struggle everyday with wanting to give up. Dont have a life anymore. Feel like im wasting away inside. Cry everyday. Pain and breathing problems everyday. Dont know anymore:(

hurtandscared,

Hello, I'm Serenitee...I wanted you to know your not alone and I am saying prayers for you. I do understand about physical, emotional and mental pain. It can wear you completely down to nothing. I suffer from a lot of medical problems
as well and it takes its toll on me so much. I have been married 23 years and we have 7-kids and 3-grand kids and even with all that love around me i still get swallowed up in my pain.

I'm sending you blessings and warm thoughts. All the Best 2 U.
Your Healingwell Friend,
Serenitee

Loop ileostomy, Pelvic & Bladder trauma and dysfunction, 2-Bladder lifts, Vaginal Vault Lift, Colon tore thru vaginal wall and then colon and bladder fell out of my body, Abdominal hysterectomy, C-section, Ruptured appendix, tumor removed from head, shoulder surgery, 4-knee surgeries, psuedomembraneous colitis, C-Diff too many times to count.

Bipolar 2, Borderline, Manic-Depressive, Anxiety/Panic Disorder, Ptsd