i dont know what to do :(

i've been depressed for awhile now. it seems like NOTHING ever goes my way. i'm only 17 and my doctor diagnosed me with major depression he prescribed me antidepressants but after about 2 weeks of taking them i felt more depressed than ever so i stopped taking them. of course i kept feeling depressed. i still cry every night. i cant go to sleep without thinking of all the bad in my life. every car i get just doesnt work. im trying so hard to get a job but nobody is hiring. my parents give me crap for not having a job every day. we're losing our house and have no idea where we are going to live. all of my friends make fun of me and they have been for the past couple of years because "i just take it". everything they say i just try to laugh off. they always call me a **** which they KNOW i am far from a ****. i have never done anything with a guy before so i think that is why they call me a **** and i just laugh it off because i know it isnt true but it just bothers me now. i dont know why it bothers me either but im just tired of everyone talking to me like that and i just feel worthless. i have no idea what i plan to do in the future and when i think about the future, i can't think of anything other than being dead.. i dont know what to do i cant stop crying and i do NOT want to go to a counselor in person. im too embarrassed. please help, im to the point where i dont want to do anything but sit in my bed and cry all day and night.

Hello, Ineedhelp, welcome to the forum. Others will be on later in
the morning to offer good advice, I feel sure.

Honestly, you need to get back on your antidepressant. Sometimes it takes as much as 5 to 6 weeks for them to really be fully effective in your system. Two weeks just doesn't give yourself enough time to know whether it's going to work or not. You need also to discuss with your doctor what to expect from the particular antidepressant you're taking. So another appointment with him is called for.

The people who are calling you names are not your friends. You need to establish friendships with people who are positive and caring, not critical and abusive. That's a large part of why you feel depressed.

Your diet may have much to do with how you feel, Ineedhelp. Don't
drink soft drinks, or eat or drink anything containing caffeine. Use
no alcohol at all. Both of these things make depression worse. Try
to eat more green vegetables and salads and avoid too much meat,
white flour products, and sugar.

Those suggestions are for starters. They can go a long way in helping you get back good feeling tone.

Your relationship in your family is disappointing to you, I feel sure. You must remember that, when they are overly critical of you they are
revealing themselves and how they feel about themselves but projecting it onto you. You should never judge yourself by who someone else says you are. Don't even judge yourself. Just evaluate who you are by your own deepest principles and try to live by them.
That will strengthen your respect for yourself and give you the courage
to move on with your life with or without your parents' criticism.

Any positive change you make for yourself might also help them to
recognize their mistake in verbally abusing you.

Please see your doctor again about your medications. Often, it takes
more than one try on an antidepressant to find the one that works best.
There is one for you that will work.

Take care of yourself.

It's Genetic

Post Edited (It's Genetic) : 7/22/2011 12:49:47 AM (GMT-6)

Welcome, and I'm sorry for the troubles that you're having.

Hopefully you're seeing an actual psychaitrist or counselor for all this, because its really hard to deal with on your own. You mentioned you're on antidepressants, but still feel bad--or worse--and that is actually somewhat common, especially in teenagers. Not every specific medication works for everyone, we're all different. So what works for one person, may not work for you. If you keep feeling poorly, even when taking your medicine, be sure to tell your doctor about it. You need to find something that works with you, and I'm sure you can find it.

Also, I experienced similar issues with 'friends' in school. Sometimes people are just making stupid jokes, and sometimes they may actually be trying to be hateful--but in the end it doesn't matter if the result is the same. If what they are saying is bothering you, you need to tell them or maybe get some new friends. It isn't fair to you to be objected to stuff that hurts you, just because you're going through a rough time.

Also, can I ask what you mean by being embarrassed to see another counselor? Do you mean you just don't like going over your troubles with them, or is it that you dislike talking about specific things with them? Either way, it honestly is not something you should be embarrassed about--although that feeling is really normal and common. Trying to get help is a great thing to do, and it isn't stupid at all. I know you can get through it and find some things that work for you--as well as finding some people who support you.

When dealing with depression we have to be proactive. Which means finding a medication that does not make you feel worse, seeking counseling, cry if you have to but go. You have to deal with your problems, you can't continue to run from them. And as for the people in your town, choose not to hang out with them. If they continue to harrass you, call the police.

I say this because I see somebody running from their problems. You have an excuse not to help yourself. But you need to. If you don't face your problems head on, they are going to fester and just get worse.

Here are a couple of sites that might help you.

http://ecouch.anu.edu.au/welcome

http://moodgym.anu.edu.au/welcome

I will also post some other sites later.

I hope that you feel better soon. Keep posting and know that we care.

Here are a few more sites that might help you.

http://www.teencentral.net/

http://www.teenhut.net/

http://nineline.org/

You might want to give these a try.  I hope some of this helps.

Hugs, Karen