hello ive never used this site be4. i dont really no where to start ?? i married my husband nearly 3 yrs ago, at this time i was in a full time job with my young son living at home, a few months after my husband got custody of his 2 sons. i went to part time then to help look after them then eventually gave up my job to work for my husband who is self employed and which meant i could pick and choose when i really needed to be at home. then things started to go wrong, my husband started treating me like rubbish, tellin me i was fat, wiping crows on me, i left i think 3 times and went to stay with my mum, hoping that something would wake him and he would realise wot he was doing, then just over 2 yrs ago my dad died suddenly, i felt he wasnt there for me he continued to belittle me, i was moarnin my dad, i started to think he was havin an affair, not with just anybody but a girl i grew up with who lived around the corner when i was younger, i didnt accuse i just watched, then we went away for the weekend and the 3 children. he belittled me again, i couldnt stand no more so i left him there, i packed mine and my sons clothes after he had gone the pub and left me feelin like i was on my own, and i just went, i txted him a sort while after telling him wot i had done, i felt bad but not as bad as how he made me feel, i didnt go back, 6 days later after stayin my mums i moved back to the marital home, he moved out, i still had in my head somethin was goin on with this girl, i confronted her, she told me it wasnt her fault that my marriage had broke down and she was only friends with my husband who she had known from when she was younger, i confronted him they both denyed it, i apologised it was the worst thing i have ever done in my life i found out a day or 2 later, wot i was feelin and thinkin was true. we split up 4 7 months, in that time he tried to come back 3 times, after each time i would see her and confront her and tell her, even to the extent of ringin him when she was there, anyway he came knockin on my door in october of last yr, sayin hed made the biggest mistake, i luv this man and i dont no why, since then ive tried to make it work, but i just cant get over wot he as done to me, when he was with this other woman he rubbed my nose in it so much, takin her the school where our children went etc, it was heart breakin. im still heart broken im up and down like a yo yo, since gettin back together in oct, i think weve split up ever month, its either him disrespectin me, or me not bein able cope, the last arguement was over stuffing gelieve it or not, i was decoratin and doin a sunday dinner, he went on some bike course the pub, when he got back dinner was nearly done and he started pickin at the stuffing i told him pack it in but he ate it all, so i did some more, served dinner and we all had this stupid stuffing, my husband asked me for a juice so i left the table to do them all a juice, i sat back down and didnt notice anythin until my husband said how nice the stuffin was, he had taken mine off my plate, i wasnt amused, i was lookin 4ward to my dinner, he had no respect for me, i started to cry, and he didnt no wot the fuss was, he ended up slidin his dinner and it all went up my blind, i started to cry more, id had enough, in told him i wasnt standing for it he kicked my cupboard door it fell off, he went, i was just so tired of this, it was my birthday on the friday i made arrangements to go out with friends and family, that day he was txtin me wantin take me out i told him no, im sick of gettin treated like that, after my birthday i had a couple of txts tellin me how he feels, then after 2 days i txted him back askin if he was ok, he was and asked if i was and he was missin me, i melted i dont no why i luv him, he came to my home then announced he had booked a wks holiday to spain with his son, hes gone today, i dont no if i should be angry or not, ive told him time and time again that i feel like im on my side of the fence and hes on the other, he says im goin mad??? i dont feel like i am, how do i react to somethin like this, i cant trust him when im with him let alone if he is in another country, could some one plzzzz give me some advice my mind is so mixed up i dont no wot is real or not
Post Edited (loz1953) : 7/30/2011 6:56:50 PM (GMT-6)