No feeling at all.

Ok, so now I don't have any feeings. Perhaps the nortriptyline is kicking in. I had such incredible sadness but today nothing. Not happy, but not sad. I'm grateful for that. Because I felt like I was at the end of my rope. I hope the meds hold off the sadness until sept, for my doc appointment. I will also continue to read all the encouraging words and advice given here.

I took my son to the beach for a few days. It was hard at first because I was so down. I had decided that I was going to the hospital upon my return and had made arrangements for him. Right now I don't feel that I need to go. I hope this feeling of nothingness isn't the calm before the storm.

Has anyone else ever had this nothingness feeling? Is this one of the waves of depression?

I have this too but I find photography a great way of seeing the world that you cant feel. I started this by taking pictures of the sunset which i couldnt feel .. then when I look at the picture I think "wow is this where I am? this is lovely"