im new here, and i really dont know what to do. , no one beleives anything i say anyway, everyone hides stuff from me, like mums gone on holiday and left me and my younger brother at home, im 23 and hes 21. hes treating me like im little and im a theif, locking the food money away that mum left, saying that its to make sure its not used for anything else. f
im not trusted in the house, and never will, im always treated differently from my brother. i also got bullied and beaten up at school, which hasnt helped but half of the reason why that happened was because of me andit being my fault. my dad died when i was 9 and ive never really got over that, but everyone else has seemed to have moved on but im finding it really hard to accept mums new boyfriend even more so now ive split from my partner.
im adopted but feel left out all the time, like im not wanted and have no one to talk to.. i knoiw i am, but i know that my brother is golden boy, and im looked down at all the time. i feel so low, all the time, have no energy, and i too dont have many friends, and suck at life right now, everything i touch seams to fall apart,im such a negative person too, i dont have much faith in my self and im really not that confident. i hate the way i am, the way i look and im truley fed up.. its not like me, at all, i just dont know what to do. i just feel so angry, ugly, useless, and not wanted, and just empty inside.
Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 9/25/2011 5:12:05 PM (GMT-6)