Late Night Blahs

So, it's 1:30 again and I'm still wide awake. I took my medication--including my sleep aid, three hours ago. I'm always so tired during the day that I have to force myself to stay away, and then by night I am completely aware and feeling crummy.

Last few days have been awful with my back pain and stuff. I've been hurting all over and my meds aren't really helping much with it, so I sorta toughed it out for the last three days.

I'm just feeling sort of down I guess because I get tired of the same thing every day. I'm always tired, I always hurt, and I'm always dependent on everyone else to do anything. My boyfriend has been sort of annoying lately. He has been on Seroquel for about a month now. I noticed some real mood stabilization the second week onward, but the last week he has been really getting to me. He's so loud and yells about everything, even when he isn't actually mad--he just yells and drives me nuts. Then he gets short with me for no reason, asks me to help with things, and then gets mad when I suggest anything to him. He's been slipping back into his depressive thoughts too, with obsessing over his weight and just general depression things. I try to give him input, but he just constantly complains about stuff no matter how much input I give. I don't care if he wants to vent, but he acts like half the time his issues are due to me or that I am hindering him or something. It's just really annoying

Anyhow, yeah, I'm just sort of having a general blah/depression right now. Not any one thing is extremely bothering me, its just sort of a stagnation. I guess I have just been dealing with too much lately, but I have limited ways of dealing with it right now. I can't just avoid everything causing me stress or I'll never get anything done, plus I need to have my family to help me due to the physical issues. But yeah, hopefully I can sleep soon and feel a bit better tomorrow.

getting by said...
Have you thought of getting checked for fibromyalgia. The pain and fatigue during the day and not being able to sleep at night makes me wonder. Maybe tak to your doctor about this if it keeps up. You might have to go through some tests to get a dx, but it is worth it. I hope that you feel better soon. And I hope that your boyfriend starts being nicer to you. And quits beingt loud. When somebody is loud, it can make a person nervous.

Let us know how things go. You will get more replies soon I am sure.

Take care,

Hugs, Karen

PS It could be chronic fatigue too. But depression does cause these symptoms too. Sorry to confuse you.

Thanks, Karen.

I have herniated discs that are impinging on nerves, so I'm in a lot of pain ever since it happened last December. I'm being treated for it, but it still really hurts my mobility. So that is what causes most of my pain. Other related spinal issues cause things too. I do think I could have arthritis, however, because my joints hurt sometimes--and not just one specific joint like me knee--but all my joints almost. (Wrists, ankles, elbows...etc). The cause of that pain may be worth checking out, I guess.

My doctor just says my lethargic stuff is from my depression, and he said at the time that it could be seasonal. That was over a year ago, though...so I doubt it was seasonal. lol!!

It could partly be due to the fact that I am very inactive, so I don't really burn much energy during the day--and then by night my food and stuff boosts my energy levels up or something.