feeling yuck

thx very much cass and karen. feeling down for blowing up and being stupid last night. jamie.

i don't know what to do. i am, sadly loosing myself. it dosen't really matter. i don't really matter. geez so so depressing, this is because i am. i love you guys more than i love myself, i love my defunct friends more than myself, and my good friends i love them more than me. i have hit the skids, am sliding without any brakes on again. i am tired. i stay up until the wee hours to try and get stuff done. i am struggling keeping my place done. all the stuff that needs doing are taking forever to get done nowadays. and i don't seem to care, well barely. i wish i had a car so i could just get away. but i don't. oh well...........oh well. chin up boy, one foot in front of the cane. am sore today. it is a very cold night here in my part of oz. beleive me i am trying, and have been trying real hard and persisting for ages. i am sick of trying.................................

love 2 all. jamie

thank you suzane. take care of you, jamie

how are you?

my healing compassionate prayers i send to you my friend. yep, one day at a time. am here for you.

~jamie

  jamie

i am trying. thx 4 your support cass. it means a real lot, thank you.

Jamie,

Sometimes we just keep doing what we can while we wait for things to let up. You have been doing amazing with that. We are all hoping for easier days ahead for you! Don't ever give up.

It's not your fault that you are dealing with so much in life. So don't feel bad about you. Take good care of yourself, mate!

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HI my friend

I'm baaaaaccckkk!!! I feel so bad to see you so down. Hospital was a good break...it is Thanksgiving day here so much to do. First thing I did when I got home was check my email...so blast away my dear, I am here...missed all of you very very much

Love to you Maggie

 

I am smiling too, my good friend...I talked about this group ALOT at hospital...and told some folks to check it out..I have missed you alot...every am when I woke up there at 3am, I wanted to get on a computer and talk to you...kinda addicted, in a good way-lol.

Feeling more hopeful, new meds and new attitude...missed you so, hope you are coming out of that slump

More later Maggie

Anytime at all dear, so good to be back with you...get some rest..luv ya back maggie

when will i feel better? can't take too much more of this. i can't.

god knows i am trying. i am crying because i don't know what to do. i walk, play music, clean when able, do paperwork when able, talk with my friends.......just, because i am such a mess. i hate this...........i hate bi-polar, i hate emotionally unstable personality disorder. i know i am a burden. i am sorry. haven't been this bad, for this long in ages. i have soothing showers and baths, i burn incense to help soothe the savage beast that is my mind. doing my chores is taking forever too. i feel useless. this is so draining. sorry needed to vent. better than avoidance coping.

luv 2 ya all. jamie

thx 4 your care and support. love, jamie

Hi Jamie,

I hope that today is better for you. Had a nice day at this end of the world. Good food, good friends. Take care, keep posting and let us know how things are going......

Hugs, Karen