Living in a nightmare

I'm a 15 year old girl, and to me life is a complete nightmare. I am taking medication for depression/anxiety, and also some to help me sleep and to help with eating, but recently I stopped taking them as I have a hard time swallowing pills and just end up spitting it up. And I talk to a worker at school.

Lately I've been extremely down, I'm feeling very alone, frustrated, lost, confused, sad, angry, tired and scared. I've tried listening to music, going for walks or doing some other type of exercise. But everything just frustrates me.

My mom keeps on my back about getting my drivers license and to get a job and go to college, but I'm so scared and insecure to do any of that! We just end up in an argument all the time.

parents ignore me, friends are excluding me from activities. Im failing classes. I just can't stay focused anymore, my grades have went from 70-80's down to 20's. On weekends i don't hang out with friends like other teens do, I have no energy or motivation to get out of bed.

I just don't know what to do anymore, I'm tired of crying and feeling this way. I just want things to get better, but I don't think it ever will.

Oh sweetie, I thought it was my daughter writing this letter, it sounds so much like her. She started emds 5 weeks ago and they doubled them and she got so sick I told her to stop.
I promise you things will get better if you keep trying. coming here shows you want things to change...it is not your fault...you need different meds or something to help keep them doen.

If you can't talk to yr mom or doc , please please find a trusted adult that can help you get the help you need.

I admire you, you are so younfg and so strong, the walking and music will help. Google deep breathing, it can help with that panicky feeling you get.

School is important (I am riding my dtr about failing grades) but the most important is YOU

Please keep posting, Wish I am a mother and you could be my child. I care deeply.

Maggie

Thanks Maggie... I hope she's doing better, yes I have found someone to talk to at school that I can go to anytime of the day when I need to. I will Definitly try that, thank you :)

Hi there,

I posted on your other thread which I am going to delete as you double posted. That happens.

I too think you should talk to your doc aobut not being able to swallow your meds. It sounds like since you stopped them, you have had more problems. Do go back on them.

Take care, keep posting.

Hugs, Karen

Welcome Wish...I am so sorry you are feeling so sad, I wish I could wrap my arms around you and give you a big hug. I am happy that you are talking with someone, I also think a group therapy would benefit you. Never give up just hang in there sometimes it feels like forever until they find the right meds for you. Just remember you are a wonderful person who has some problems you need to work through. Believe it or not most people have a problem they have to work through...You can do it.

Keep in touch....you are in my thoughts and prayers
Bless you, Amy


Chronic pain(nerve), fibro and mild depression

Hi Wish
Just wondering how you are doin? Haven't heard from you ina coupla days...thinking about you
Had to pick up my daughter from school due to anxiety attack but she is a fighter too and things WILL get better for you both..you are always welcome to come here and talk and not be judged..we feel for you and want to help

Hope things are getting better for you sweetie
Love
Maggie