I want to punch my husband

I can tell you that the section 8 housing in the areas around me have VASTLY improved! There are developing communities in areas in Livingston parish and they're super nice.

Maggie, can you call anyone and get anymore help? I wonder if any local office could point you in the right direction. I know it sounds crazy, but in my CASA manual they provided me with all of those resources for our area... somewhere, someone has to have the info for Mississippi.

It is a very sad path that your husband's brothers have chosen... I will never understand not making efforts in relationships, especially those with family! Maybe he needs to be a destitute old man for a bit so that he can be grateful! I know, I know, not very nice... I hope he can open his eyes or you can get the hell of out dodge!

Kels... well... at least you get along??? LOL. Baton Rouge isn't such a bad place to be; I have a good friend in Gonzales and one in Donaldsonville. I don't think I could ever tough it out in Baton Rouge, but Lafayette... now we're talking. Or, I could always get back to the Cresent City. Life will only tell.

I will just keep praying that a magical door opens up for you Maggie... take care of (little) Bean :)

Courtney

Maggie....just wanted you to know I keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I hope things work out for you and Katie. In the meantime just keep putting one foot in front of the other...good things will come your way.


Bless you, Amy

Maggie,
Will they require you to be divorced? Because I'm married, I can't receive federal assistance on my education-except for loans.. mhmm. But if I were single, I'd qualify for more. I just hope they don't try to base things off yalls income and not just yours. Good luck, Maggie!!

Green,
BR isnt so bad. You must have lived in one of the surrounding areas of N.O. or you just really hate Baton Rouge. It's definitely not as busy here as it is there! Unless that's not why you wouldn't make it out here lol. I used to live in Prairieville (like right next to Gonzales). I live in a nice little neighborhood so I'm not in the middle of the busy streets.

Hope everybody has a good evening!

keep talkin' to us maggie. love ya. jamie. always here for you. keep strong.

Maggie,
If you want this bad enough, I really believe that you will find a way to make it work.
I don't know you very well but I can see how strong and tenacious you are.
This really struck a chord with me. I wasted over 15 years of my life on a selfish, irresponsible alchoholic. I dated him for 13, then went on to marry him. If that isn't the definition of insanity..... By the time we finally seperated, he had sucked most of the life out of me and I had been battling depression for years. I felt like a shell of the person I had once been. I had nothing left inside to give. The only difference is we didn't have children, so I can imagine how difficult this must be when a child is involved.
But I stayed for the same reason- money. I thought there would be no way I could manage on my own and that I'd lose everything.
I did lose alot and had to start over, but my life is far beyond what I ever could have imagined now....it is calm, it is stable and for the first time ever, I'm in a healthy relationship with a man that supports and loves me and gives more to me that I feel I could ever repay.
There is a different life for you and Katie on the other side of all of this. And you might struggle, but to find happiness and peace again, the other things won't matter as much.
I know you can do it Maggie. And we'll all be here cheering you all along the way.
Please do this for yourself and your daughter. You deserve so much better.
Here for you anytime you need to talk or vent and if you want my email address, I'd be happy to give it to you.

Thanks ember and daisy-you always ahve such positive advice. Section 8 is not even taking apps and lowincome housing complex altho brand new since katrinais very definitely ina poor crime ridden area so i am looking for a little house maybe up in the country, it is prettuy hard on 1164/month but I haven't given up. Hubby is all sugar and spice...not working for me at all

Katie started her adhd med today and we had a good meeting with her guidance counselor. Her gpa is 3.2, yeah I'm pretty bad parent, aren't I? Counselor said to let us know anythiing she can do to accomodaye adhd concerns, so feel very good about that.

I am going to decorate tree with Katie and her 2 friends tonite (both are having trouble at home so staying with us) and make a nice night of it.

Hope you all have a good night-aI am

Love Maggie

That does sound like fun, decorating the tree with the girls. Fun...

It sounds so homey and comforting.

Hope that you are feeling well Mags...

Hugs, Karen

Hi Maggie,
Just checking in. How are you doing today?
Sorry to hear about section 8 :/ Don't give up, something will come through. I think all things happen for a reason so when the time is right, everything will fall into place.
That's great news about Katie :)
How was your evening? Did you have fun decorating the tree?
Sending good wishes your way.

Thank you Amber very kind of you..

My options are well...none. Can't sell the house, can't afford to rent, no gov't assistance..it is weird living under the same roof, different bedrooms, like parallel lives that cross only to explode..what is my Katie learning from this...she has a very schizo relationship with her Dad...she loves him but can't stand his personality (me too) he has many good qualities but seems to be so angry that life didn't turn out the way he wanted....too much would not be enuf for him, never satisfied, never grateful, never compliments us, always his way...I know it is hard for him with me being sick but I take my meds and go to doc, he doesn;'t "can't afford meds" but can afford tacos and beer

IDK right now, I will tread softly and pick my way thru the infield and try to keep it upbeat for Katie-she has enuf on her plate too and it is all about her and growing a healthy loving child

I don't feel sorry for myself, but do feel resentful and trapped but keep counting my blessings to counteract the self-pity I'll make it thru I just need to protect Katie from the fallout

Love to all and thanks

Maggie

Thanks Amber, God infuses me every day with His love, His joy,His forgiveness...I would be selfish to not absorb those gifts, so life is good...as some old country man once told me "It ain't nothin' but a thang!!" I will make that part of life small..I am going to be volunteering and getting out of the house more in the New Year and that will be great medicine...love given comes back tenfold so instead of negativity I will choose to love, always. These hard times have taught me so much about others and myself.

tHANKS to all for the contnued support-I relish it

Maggie

Life is good..katie and her 2 friends sat in my bedroom and we talked for hours and I felt so honored they would confide in me...such good kids and I'm glad they listen to my advice...put out more xmas decos and did some shopping....homemeade candles and cookies are gifts this year, except the kids of course

i am in acceptance stage...his mania is subsiding and is cooperative and kind now so... we take it as it comes...

I hope you are having a great day amber...email me if you ever want to talk

Love Maggie