Really Feeling It

Hello,

My name is Monica, I think I have posted over here a few times, I am usually on the Fibro forum. I was off of work for almost three months, and I honestly did not know how I was going to go back, I felt a lot better not being there. Well I went back, and not even a week later, about 12 people's jobs got eliminated, I was included in the 12 people. I have been thinking the entire time that I was glad because work was too much, so now that the holiday's are over, and now hubby is back to work, kids in school and I'm at home, all of the sudden major depression is here. I don't understand why because I have been wanting this for so long. I have severance and unemployment, so financially I'm ok (for now).

So now I don't want to do anything all day, just stay in bed. I'm taking 60mgs of cymbalta, and 300 mgs of welbuterine. I just feel so blah I want to feel normal and happy again.

Hi there Hopegirl,

I tend to agree with Alaskah, maybe you need something to get your interest or keep your mind busy. Or maybe there is a little anger there, but I don't think so. I think it is the lack of something to look forward to. Start off with a small project. Something that you always wanted to be able to do but couldn't because you were working.

Allow yourself to just do nothing for a day. Don't worry about what you can't do. Just for one day. Try to enjoy the freedom of doing and thinking about nothing. See if that helps. Just don't take it out on yourself because you are depressed. I would also suggest that you talk to somebody about counseling if you don't already go. They could help you through this transition.

I hope that you feel better soon. Keep posting and know that we all care...

Hugs, Karen

Hi,
Thank You so very much for your replies.

I have prayed very long to not have to work, I think its just the actual adjustment. All I seem to do is lay in bed.
Then later on I get up and cook dinner. But it's like I have no energy. I am taking nuvigil everyday, but I don't feel like it has given me any energy. I am seeing my doctor on Thursday. We talking about actually talking to a therapist as well as medication, so I am willing to give it a try.
I think that I thought I would jump right into major cleaning and sorting at home, but I have no interest in that right now.

You guys really have made me feel better, like I'm not all alone. Thank You so very much!!


-Monica