Blahhh

Feeling so depressed, sick and stressed. A few days ago a friend of mine gave me a valium to try and being on it seems to lift such a huge burden off of me. It's seeing life from the eyes of someone who doesn't crippling anxiety and depression...and it almost made me freak out because I realized how deluded and irrational my usual thinking is. Everything I do comes from a place of sickness, anxiety, depression and insecurity. Desperation....I really cannot live life feeling this way all the time!!! it's not worth it to me!

I'm taking an Herbs and Herbal Medicine class and last night we actually learned how to make a Valium tincture (off a Youtube video). Might be something to look into for you. You mix the dry plant with alcohol for a few weeks, then drain out the plant and you're left with a bottle of the valium supplement. Just a few drops in a glass of water may be very helpful, natural, and safe. I'm considering moving to something like that instead of my Ambien to help me sleep. It'd be cheaper than a prescription and lasts for a long time because of the alcohol in it (or you can use gin, whiskey, whatever you prefer. You take such a small dose, the alcohol is really just a preservative).

sounds real helpful. very interesting. jamie

dear elf in the meantime consult your doctor. with healing compassion, jamie.

ps feel better soon, we care.