Hi Jamie: Keep in mind that I get weepy rather easily lately, so with that said, your three words of "how are you?" brought and are still bringing tears to my eyes. I'm having a tough time right now, but I have been keeping it all in because none of it even compares to what you are going through. So much so that I know you'd love to switch places.
Basically, I have been frozen. I'm not good at feeling or identifying feelings. I"m messed up that way. But I was able to finally spit out my fear to my therapist last week that I've literally been frozen because I have been scared out of my mind. Financially, it has and continues to be tough. I've had a few months of partial reprieve since I left my home but it is starting to build up again. And I haven't been taking the appropriate steps that I need to take to deal with it because I'm just too darn scared and don't trust myself in making decisions anymore.
I know what I have to do starting today (after I finish this post) and I just want to cry because I'm so scared. But I know if I don't start doing these right things (as my therapist said) things will get worst.
Sorry, don't mean to sound cryptic. Lots of details really wouldn't change my explanation anyway. So thank you for asking. I'm still here thinking and praying of you and hoping that some of your strength might finally rub off on me.
Thanks for listening.
Cass