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Posted 4/17/2012 9:00 PM (GMT 0)
Does anyone work on altered book Journals.  I have completed one half way through my second.  Can not get back into the swing since the disappointing news from my therapist last week. As a matter of fact, I don't want to journal, draw, paint nothing creative.   Any suggestions?
Posted 4/18/2012 4:51 AM (GMT 0)
What is an altered book journal? What is the disappointing news? I kind of consider posting here to be a form of therapy. I try to paint a smile and give others words of encouragement. However, I don't feel encouraged myself... I have posted some sensitive issues in the hopes of building an online sort of companionship, but my posts go relatively unanswered. I don't leave me house and seldom have anything new to share with others, so I remain quiet and locked away. My wife thinks I should be happy to stay home and not have to work. She also thinks I can turn my depression off like a light switch.

BNotAfraid, I sure hope you get to a point where you are happy again. You will always have my support.

Cheers!

Charles
Posted 4/18/2012 12:53 PM (GMT 0)
Charles,

you may not be getting the answers that you want to hear. And we can't turn our depression off like a light switch. If we could I would have disconnected mine. lol...

I am sorry that you don't feel you are getting the suppoprt that you want. I hope that changes for you. Live in the present. Forget about the past, and don't worry aobut the future. That is the easiest way to go.

Keep posting.

Hugs, Karen
Posted 4/18/2012 6:17 PM (GMT 0)
Karen, I worry about the flashbacks I keep having. I don't know how to process it all. I don't want to go to a Psych. Ward. I guess I don't trust myself and what I may say to my Psychologist, but then again I am afraid that if I don't tell her the truth about these flashbacks and how I feel I will never find a way to deal with it.

I already know my wife doesn't support me and if I were forced to be hospitalized she will flip out. I wouldn't be able to live with the shame. Still, it seems my depression is getting worse! It would have been better if I broke my neck.
Posted 4/18/2012 6:33 PM (GMT 0)
No Worries! nono

Maybe you should start a altered book journal!  This is when an older book  is taken and altered! You can paint the pages,

clue pictures, fabric, use words, sentences etc... from the book.  I use a lot of pics and words from magazines. also my

own art work.

The idea is to dump your emotions, good, bad, horrible into the book. If someone picks the book up they really do not

know what you are trying to say. Unless of you they are intimately sharing your journey with you.  There are many web sites out there to refer to if interest.  Some people make it expense with stuff from AC Moore and the like.  I keep mine cheep,  it is about my dumping ground, not display.

So I take it that no one has done on.

Still not creative today. 6 days since told EMDR is not for me "yet" need more grounding in containment and safe place work. Been doing this for 8 mos.   One day at a time....

Posted 4/18/2012 7:12 PM (GMT 0)
Thanks for explaining it to me. I have no interest in doing an altered journal. However, I do need to find something to keep me busy. I don't have any hobbies. Of course I'm very depressed and have no nearest n even breathing, so go figure. I do enjoy photography, but it's expensive...I need better lenses.

I am trying to write a book about my previous job, but it's hard to recall things I no longer can do.
Posted 4/18/2012 9:22 PM (GMT 0)
Just start writing. It will jog your memory. If it doesn't work for you then try something else.

I just wanted to mention that for some people, the altered journal might be helpful. Though it may not be for everybody. Thanks for mentioning it.

Hugs, Karen
Posted 4/18/2012 10:29 PM (GMT 0)
Thanks a lot Karen for always replying to my crazy posts. I feel like I'm wasting your time. I shouldn't be allowed to post anything. It's just mindless dribble from a worthless person who knows better.

I need to stop...I need someone to stop me...please just edit my posts by simply deleting them. I won't mind, considering I don't remember what I said or wrote moments ago. Do me the favor and delete these posts. Click on me and hit the delete key! Hahahahaha...no, seriously do it! I wish it was that simple. Delete, delete, delete...beep, beep, beep!!! My beep really delete's! Beep, beep lol!
Posted 4/18/2012 11:22 PM (GMT 0)
Just staying on top of things. So admin doesn't have to. Don't leave us or anything. Keep posting.

Hugs, Karen
Posted 4/19/2012 5:13 PM (GMT 0)
I like all the support, but I'm just too much of a mess. I hate being a burden and feeling out of control.

It's best I keep to myself and out of contact. I don't remember what I say or write and the stress is overwhelming. I used to be out going and friendly. Now, I avoid speaking with others and hate leaving the house. I'm going to try taking some time away from writing and posting. Perhaps after some time I will feel well enough to be a source of hope, motivation and support for others who are suffering. Then I will feel I matter and can make a positive contribution.

Thanks and good bye.

Cheers!

Charles
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