Strong Feelings

I rarely get to go out, be myself and have fun. Just these past few days I got to travel and see a couple of favorite bands play. One of them a second time, and met the lead female vocalist a second time too. After meeting her the first time, I fell in love and into a little depression. I never felt such a strong connection to somebody. It did after awhile subside, though still having a thing for her. Now I feel more complete after seeing/talking with her again, but that strong feeling came back and now I don't want to leave the state (supposed to be moving out of state in June). I never liked it here but just realized I don't want the change. I'm missing her and miss getting to be around people that inspire me. I feel stuck, and more alone. How can I be around these people more often? I don't have anyone else to turn to.

Thanks for replying, Courtney.

A little better today, but, I don't want to move not just because of a strong connection with a person but a deep connection with the area. I'm afraid that moving will alter my interests. The location has no 'music center/venue' or much of a cultural/downtown area for hours and no public transit or train. I'm afraid of missing out on these events and not being around these people whose passions and creativity inspire me. I'm not generally personable but I want to be around people that are welcoming and sweet. My family and others here in this town aren't so. I'm an artist at heart. I feel misplaced.