Depression & sadness

Hi, my name is Irene , my fren recommend me this healing well is bcos I have illness of crohns & depression, my depress come from husband son & mother and relative too, now I filing for divorce but my ex-husband want cash from me then agree to sign so maybe I have to sell my flat to pay after tat need to buy new flat to stay probs is afraid can't afford to buy by tat my worry come whr should I stay & my family? Now my son also give probs to me, b4 he is very good boy but now change a lot all effect from his dad, my mother also have prob she can't walk is on wheelchair, her temper very bad everyday keep shouting & scolding, even wat I do not suit her , I really don understand how to please her,now my body having a lot probs, sometimes diarrhea sometimes constipation stomach bloated can't sleep in nite mind always keep thinking of many things but sometimes Donno wat isn't sometimes I will drop tears too just suddenly feel very sad, in march 28 of 2012 I was admitted pyscho doc suggest I stay in mental wards but I reject and say I am not mad just is feel depress , I feel to have a fren can listen to my story so at least I can let go if not my mind going blust,I have a fren like my sis she have illness too but her treatment going start how I wish when tx she don feel any sx cos I scare she feel lonely alone, in her family she is only daughter if she feel sad just can chat in HW too, I wish when she start tx I can bside her but she don agree de, I hope can help her cos she did help me a lot a lot, god send her here to give me will to live on my life, here wan say something to my best fren, Dorelia I love u thks for ur encourage n care u are soo kind n helpfully god will look after you .....

My story if wanted to say is very long and can't finish also I can't write too my words very simple tat let everyone read oredi feel angry tat y in HW me dare not post , simple say house is my dad leave it to me then we married his family said he is marry to me unless add his name as owner if not he stay will don't pay everything included my allowance so have no choice add his name as owner, first year he say give 5k and bring me to hong kong but 14 years pass all just is talk first and second years still fine we go out and talk everything's he is self-employ own business one day his fren want join in then scold me say woman cannot do accountant and interfer business and ex-husband just quiet and ask me just don't do it again when I hear tat wat my feeling? He care his fren more then me, after tat I don interfer then just stay at be a good hsewife till 6 year pass one day his nephew come and stay w gf then nephew address me as mistress ex-husband don feel angry or anything even (nephew hug and kiss my face )in 2008 I meet my fren from Penang he wanted to come Singapore work so I help to find job place to stay too, ex-husband say don't like to see me w my fren tgt then I say why can't help ( ex-can help his fren but I can't) ? So we quarrel over then he say divorce I agree too since 14 years tgt not happy too 12 years never talk never sleep tgt like wat? But ex said wan divorce I have to give him $35 k then he sign docs and w drawn his name out of e house so have no choice how hard also must pay him and start my new life right, I oredi live in hell for 12 years I don't wan anymore when ex business fail my mother took cash out help him but when ex can afford to pay ex nvr pay just like help ex this must de, oh forget important to tell tat is his fren join in ex company not long around 6 months his fren took all e money and run but ex don't feel anything nvr report police or do something ( know y bcos tat fren is b4 his lover bro) my ex- can drawn very well picture so ex drawn his ex picture and keep till now, I ask ex to drawn one for me ex keep say don wan if to u how ur feeling? B4 we married ex know I have crohns and I tell ex me can pass away anytimes if flare up maybe bcos this he married me ( ex tink if me pass ex can get my house so is worth to married me right) when 2006 my crohns flare up and going to blust need to faster op but ex tell doc ex say he no money ask me wait to die so my mother pay for me , everytime my crohns flare up admitted ex don pay at all I really very tireding of this life and days so do you think divorce is the better way for me? I have a son name Nelson now 11 year old I very worry of him Donno will he have infect by me w crohns my stress come from my mother ex relative anything happen I will be get scolding by them and they look down on me bcos me poor no schooling also have illness now waiting to apply remicade or humira jap for my crohns but social worker said need wait 2-3 month also does not mean confirm approve tat jap cost a bomb I can't afford to pay if they don't approve I tink the only way is settle my divorce arrange my son and mother I will end up my life so I don't worry about them anymore even I not here my mother don't feel anything too . So sorry I write too long and hard to let ppl read but hope everyone don mind , here I sincerely thank to everyone who read and reply me very very thanks ....... GOD BLESS EVERYONE .....

Hi Karen. Thank for ur encourage how about you now ? Getting better ? Sometime in the night suddenly feel to cry when the show is very funny I can't feel it too when the show showing but my mind Donno doing wat can't concentrate at all The stress come my pain again follow by