Posted 9/3/2012 2:02 AM (GMT 0)
How's it meant to be, like children's picture books? All lies...
Life isn't how it's portrayed to you as a child or even now.
I'm an 18yr old student who is currently trying to finish HSC but failing at it.
I don't have a social life or any hobbies anymore. I just need someone to talk to. Anyone really.
I do have a boyfriend, but he knows nothing about how I'm feeling. I chose to hide it from everyone because once where I used to live I told people and it got around and I was known as the 'attention seeker' and for those who understand what it's like. We do NOT do it for attention. It took me all the courage I had in my body to tell people and then it got ripped apart and then I thought, Wow, you think you know someone and then they change in a day...
I don't know if depression is what I have. I've never been a doctor about it but I feel as though I am, everyday.. I fake smiles at school and in front of family but at night when I'm cuddled in bed, I cry. I let out everything I've kept in that day and It gets me by. But for how much longer..
I'm a strong person when It comes to physical pain, it doesn't phase me. But this kills. Nothing could ever hurt as much as what this does to me..
Someone just please to talk to me.
I'm searching for someone who understands 'cause at the moment, in my mind, no one does...