Hi Everyone! I'm having a hard time talking to anyone close to me, and my friend is concerned. Its easier to get it all on here than anywhere else. I feel like things are very... I feel blocked inside. I don't know how to describe it. I'm zoning out, and everything is off. I'm worried I might be pchcologically breaking, like something seems off. I don't have those negitive thoughts, and we all know what I mean. I continue want to live, but I'm screwing up on things that I never mess up on. Today, I was late for my job, screwing up on days where I start earlier. That is not like me, and I don't understand whats happening. I know with working two jobs, people get tired. My other job, I do great on. I work with patients w/ althemizers & demetia, and they love me. I treat them like there my family. Emotionally, after a day there though, I feel like I'm a pathtic. Like, it messes with me when I'm off the job. I feel like that ain't normal. Seeing the downfall of these people as they get worse, I don't really know how to talk about any of this, and my friend tells me she has reason. She feels like its serious, whatever going on with me. I just am looking for anyone to maybe help me get some thought what's going on. If i should be concerned....
Thanks everyone! Sorry short, but I'm can't figure anything out. Its like I want to talk, but am having a hard time. I feel trapped....