Feeling lost

Hello. I'm new here and not quite sure how to start. I have been suffering from depression, anxiety, and PTSD for many years. I have been on several different meds. They seem to work for a while and then they don't seem to help. I was sexually abused as a child and never told anyone until I was an adult. I am married but have been separated for about 5 years. I am in a relationship with a man I truly love but I am questioning how he feels about me. I try to talk to him but either he says I shouldn't have the feelings I have or I feel he doesn't really listen to me.

 

I was looking online at different sites to find a chat room I would be comfortable chatting in. I really need someone to talk to before I lose it.

Tee

Welcome to the forum,

MOOOO and I could not agree with Karen more! Think about how you feel when he tells you, "You should not feel that way." Guy is not looking for committment. Do you live together? It didn't seem so in your post.

Tell your doc about the medications not working there are a lot of new combos and doses to use these days.

Therapy is important, need to process the crap, I was abused too. Can not get past it unless you face it. One memory at a time.

Keep posting we are here to support and listen

Stay strong.

Trina

Have you ever written your thoughts down and carried them with you to your counselor? Maybe that would help you to say what you want to say. I am the same as you. Writing is easier for me too. I am able to talk to people on the forum better than in person. The forum helps a lot. I hope that it helps you too. Keep posting. Take care...

Hugs, Karen

PS  I reread your first post and realize that you are saying the guy that you are living with isn't supportive of you in ways.  I am sorry to hear that.  Have you ever mentioned this to your counselor?  They could maybe come up with some ways to open communication.  It is really important to have support and not be made to supress our feelings.  You can get support here. 

I am glad that you feel that way. The first time I went to my last psychiatrist, I carried a sheet of paper with all the questions that I wanted to ask. Within 20 min, he covered every point and I didn't even ask a question. That is how thorough he is. I really like him, and he has helped me so much with medications. But yea, it helps to write things down. I think keeping a journal is a wonderful idea. I hope you find one that you like. It is nice to have a journal. And a notebook works fine.

My sister did therapy where she wrote with her left hand (she is right handed). It is suppose to help by not using the dominent side of your body. I guess your true unmasked feelings come out. I have never tried it myself. But it sounded interesting if it works. You could ask your therapist about that.

I hope that this has been a good day for you. I hope you aren't near the storm. Keep posting because it really does help. Not just writing things down, but connecting with the other members. Many of us have been where you are now and can relate.

Take care,

Hugs, Karen