Posted 11/22/2012 10:31 PM (GMT 0)
Happy Thanksgiving to you too...today I feel lonelier than ever because I am alone on thanksgiving day. I hope things do get better but I see everything black. I never really have friends because I go into a school not knowing anyone then when I meet someone I have to move so I don't make friends. And when I do I either get betrayed or they just stop talking to me. I actually kept one friend, she was my best friend even when I moved we kept in touch, then one day she asked me to do her a favor and pretend I'm with her so her mom wouldn't find out she was with her bf but she got caught and blamed it on me and at that time I have met someone and we went out and he broke up with me and I texted her saying that I needed her and she said she could care less, my sister got in an accident with my brother in law so my mom had to live with her for six months and she left me alone, I was alone on my birthday, I didn't know anyone at school and it was senior year. While people were hanging out afterschool and going out to est, i couldnt because my parents went bankrupt, I was stressing out a lot , i wouldnt get much sleep, i wouldnt eat and had no one to help me. My x bf then became just my friend and he started helping me, but it seemed to hurt me that I was with him. One day I got really tired and I just wanted to give up on life, but I couldn't. I had so much pressure so much sadness, I couldn't hold it in and the next day at school I cried, I cried everyday after that, my counselor called me to her office and told me to get help and I did. I started dropping my grades and I wanted to quit school but I wasn't about to throw it all away so I made an effort to do everything I could to graduate. After I graduated my stress decreased and I started volunteering at an animal shelter and it seemed to calm me down. My friend (x bf) has been with me helping me, but at times I don't even know what we are...