Posted 12/15/2012 9:34 AM (GMT 0)
I know this sounds crazy, but I am going through so much right now. I know that some people feel that school is a good place to escape all of my problems but the real problem is school itself. Just the thought of it fills me with so much dread and anxiety that I cant go back until i'm "better." I feel that if I don't take care of my depression, anxiety, social anxiety, and other possible disorders that I don't even know about that i will never be normal and okay. I just want to be okay!
I know this sounds irrational to some people but I can't help it. I am not mentally ready for this. This is my fourth year of high school, I am supposed to be graduating but I failed classes because I have a fear of school and the stress it brings me. I'm only 17 and my parents are forcing me to go to school, I know they mean well but it scares the crap out of me when I'm there. Anyway, im not talking about months, just maybe a week so that I can see a therapist, be prescribed something or so before I fail classes again. I won't be able to take disappointing myself and my parents again.
I feel that I am in a time in my life where I need help right NOW and I am much more worried about my well being then school. (I am pretty smart so I wont be missing anything really)
Do you think this is possible or am I just crazy? Do you think the school would understand that I am going through some extremely tough times and excuse my absences? I know i have to go to school. I do not want to avoid it forever, I want to be normal. I want to be able to go to school like everyone else, or how will I go to college or maintain a good job? (Anxiety, I know lol)
Sorry for the weird rant. I cant help myself anymore, but thank you for reading it in advance. :)