Pain induced depression, can you help me?

I have never been this way. I feel so threatened and I just cant go anywhere. I say I will, then I cant do it. my husband is so fed up. He has NO patience and a quick trigger. He and my mom and sister got together a few weeks ago and just insisted I get help. They wanted for me to check in to a mental hosp. for inhouse treatment. I flat out refused but have promised to go outpatient 3 days a week. I DONT KNOW HOW I CAN DO THAT. It freaks me out. I know physically it is going to cause me intense physical pain with my neuropathy in feet, legs and hands and arms. My days are filled with doing NOTHING but doing what I have to do to keep my pain at a level I can stand. When I get over the limit where I feel frantic with the pain I just have to close myself up in bedroom and block out all stress of noise and intrusion. My pain meds are not in any way over the limit. In fact I limit them myself. Yesterday I had to take 2 7.5 hydrocodone at a time to get easy. I have only done that twice. My perscription allows 3 a day, but I seldom ever take the 3rd one. I have a fear that I will reach a point that I have to have so much and so strong of a med. that I wont ever get any relief short of being totally out completely.

I know I need help in a huge way. I want to go for therapy, yet I just cannot see how I can ever learn how to handle the pain, and it rules my life. Why cant people see that. It has taken me days to be able to share this much on here. I want and need help so much, is there anyone here who is so depressed by pain?...........thanks for reading......Cathy

Do you have a pain management doctor? I have had 4 back surgeries and for 10 years I did nothing. Until my doctor finally understood my level of existence and living was nothing and he referred me to pain management. It helped so much. Yes there are people out there that take advantage of pain medications. But for me, it was something that was needed at the time and I took it all just like the doctor said.

I still live with daily pain and on some days I am better than other. I agree with AV that once you AND your family accept that pain is something you will all live with, then you can learn how to cope and live with it daily.

I also think counseling might help you. Not many people in the world understand daily debilitating pain. A counselor can help you cope with your family and have suggestions of how you can deal with it.

It's not an easy road but one small step at a time and you and your family can learn to handle it.

Good luck and let us know how the outpatient goes.
Michele

Hi there,

I have fibromyalgia so I understand your pain. The thing I don't understand is why you don't take the third pill. Especially if pain is stopping you from wanting to go to the program. Do take that first step. Depression and pain can go hand and hand. But if that many of your family members are concerned about your mental health, you really should try to do something. It isn't always easy to start, but once you get going, it gets easier. Trust me...

Know that we all care about you here and want to see you feel better.

Hugs, Karen