HealingWell
Search Close Search
☰

Depression or Anxiety?

Support Forums
>
Depression
✚ New Topic ✚ Reply
❬ ❬ Previous Thread |Next Thread ❭ ❭
Posted 4/7/2013 10:10 PM (GMT 0)
I have had clinical depression for 40 years at least, and anxiety too. I have been doing OK lately. My pain has been helped so much with fentanyl pain patch. Like a vacation from pain. My son and his gal are expecting my first grandchild in July. Naming him after my father, Hunter, my whole family so excited. I am just so happy and thankful.

Now, on what should be a very peaceful happy sunday, yet i feel so down, so anxious, even angry. I have no idea why. Do you know my friends? I have been on meds for almost 30 years. Have had s full blown Manic faze 20 yrs. ago. causing the end of a 21 year marriage. I have not experienced anything like that again. I felt so low and clawing out of a deep hole that took years to do. I married a long ago high school sweetheart 10 years ago. We do pretty well for being totally unalike.

8 years ago I started having severe pain in my feet. It progressed and I cannot tell you how bad the burning pain is in both feet and hands. WHY does a day come along that feels like nothing will ever be right again? It is difficult writing this because I dont have the energy to hold my eye lids up. I just want to get away so I dont have to deal with anyone. No family, no husband, everybody just leave me alone. I ask you is it true depression, or a day of bad anxiety? I hope tomorrow is better. I cant imagine what to do if this dark cloud and pain and stomach pain and I just jump at the smallest sound. I look forward to hearing if any of you get this too........thank you for reading........happy sunday......Cathy
Posted 4/7/2013 10:20 PM (GMT 0)
HI Cathy,

I haven't had much energy lately. All I want to do is sleep. And it takes too much energy just to stand up. But I think mine is the weather. We had snow again this morning. It is as if it is never going to end.

I found a cream that helps my shoulders and it might help your feet. It is called Australian Dream. Sounds strange I know. It is a little pricey. But I am trying it. It kind of warms up the area in time and takes away mild pain. So far, it has helped me. It makes the blood flow better in the affected area. Maybe it will help you too. My husband has the problem you have and our floors are very cold in winter. I see him placing his bare feet on the floor.

It sounds like you could have both depression and anxiety right now. Mostly depression though. When I experience anxiety, I also feel a little fearful. Do you feel fearful at all? Or just agitated?

I hope that you feel better soon. Keep posting and know we all care....

Hugs, Karen...
Posted 4/7/2013 10:27 PM (GMT 0)
Thanks Karen, no, I dont feel fearful. I feel more dangerous that fearful.....just kidding, but dont get in my path today. I might be sweet, or I might NOT. I am feeling better already tho, and thanks to you, you are a dear.
Posted 4/8/2013 2:28 AM (GMT 0)
I take a mood stabilizer for when I am moody. I mean when you said "I might be sweet, or I might NOT", that is kind of how I get. I can get kind of mean. But with the mood stabilizer, I don't get that way. But I found most of my moodiness came from thinking too much and eventually assuming things. The less I think, the better for me. I try to focus on what I am doing and that takes care of that problem.

Right now my issue is getting myself out of my house. I don't have agoraphobia or anything. But I have been cooped up for so long this winter and it is hard for me to go anywhere. Plus my dog has separation anxiety and it is hard to leave her. She is a german shepherd dog. She gets very anxious if she thinks I am going somewhere, which makes me more anxious. Though I think my anxiety is causing it all. I got to teach her to calm down.

Anyhow, I am really happy that you are feeling better. And that in turn makes me feel better to know. I hope that you have a good evening.

Hugs, Karen...
Posted 4/8/2013 2:32 PM (GMT 0)
neuropathy10

I am so sorry that you are in such a dark place right now. I know that it is hard for you with your foot pain. I do hope that you try the cream Karen suggested. Glad that you patches are helping.

Your darkness sounds like mine a little, overwhelming. I use journaling to dump the emotions out, get them out on paper, I do feel better. I draw and paint, you do not have to be an artist for this to work for you.

Breathing is one of my go to skills, I do it at least 10 times a day, deep breath in slow breath out. If you make you exhale, longer than you inhale, you body will naturally relax.

Staying in the moment is another great skill to use.

I wish you peace and comfort.

Trina
✚ New Topic ✚ Reply