I have been busy all day today. And it seems nothing has been accomplished. It's like I am spinning my wheels and not going anywhere. I still have to go to the grocery store...
We are having a famiy get together tomorrow at my brothers house. I am suposed to bring dessert. I have ended up deciding on bringing 3 different things. On the way to the grocery store, I am going to simplify that. There is no sense in me doing that to myself. Although I would enjoy doing it for the family, I just can't.
My emotions are getting the best of me. I am overwhelmed with life. I feel like I am a nut case. I have got to start taking better care of myself. I will go to the store. We are almost out of everythng, so not much choice there. That's the thing. It's late, and I am just now going. This should have been done earlier today, like most people do. My thinking isn't right at all.
Alot of anxiety about tomorrow. We all love eachother. But we don't get together much anymore, especially all at the same time. I do know that if things end up getting bad, I can get up, kiss my mom, get my kids and go home. I don't have to put up with all of that. And I won't...
This will be a short shopping trip. I have decided not to make anything. I will just pick up a apple pie already made. That works. I just don't have it in me. This pushing myself and doing what I don't have to do has to stop. What I need is rest. Hope to get to bed asap. I am just simply tired and completely drained...exhausted.