hard to maintain friendships

Hello and happy Friday..TGIF!!...having an okay day so far thank goodness and hope you all are too.I think besides wanting to sleep all day and not wanting to shower except when I have to,I don't have any close friends or the ones I did have faded away because I always cop out on get togethers and find it hard to commit to things depending on how I'm feeling that day.?...I keep telling myself I'm better off..less aggrevation and emotional involvement the better ie:less anxiety.,etc.,working swing shifts doesn't help the situation either because most people work normal 9 to 5 shifts.I have a wonderful beau though and he's my best friend and have a great family.I recently reconnected with a childhood friend for about 6 months we were tight then she started giving me conditions or rules about things I could and could not ask her about.??..That was weird so I told her bye.I guess I put up a wall and don't realize.

Hello Sleepygirl-

Happy Friday to you too! I am glad you are having an okay day. We have to hold on and appreciate the good days! :)

Looking back, I pushed people away with my attitude. Like you, I was invited to things but didn't feel like going and eventually people stopped asking. I also had 2 close friends and lost them due to my depression. People just don't understand how you feel with this illness.

I've recently connected with one girlfriend who lets me cry when I need to, makes me laugh, etc. She is a God send. For me, I like having one girlfriend who can understand my issues and family situations.

I will say that I would rather have one close friend than many friends- too much drama! I don't have time or tolerance for all that anymore.

You are not alone! We are here to listen to you. We understand.

Continue to have a great day!!!!
Michele