For almost 11 years of my marriage, I always have the thought of becoming hopeful to let my fear gone...My hubby-he always drink (alcoholic drinks). He couldn't help it. He said it's his way of relieving his stress. Kind a unreasonable!.. When he's drunk, he freaks out. Throw things, shout, say things that really hurts my feelings. When worse , he becomes violent, push me, disturb our kids in sleeping.
...That's my fear...it always happen..the next day, it seems to him that nothing happen... say sorry..i KNOW he loves my and kids ...he is so kind when he's not drunk or i should say "normal"
............whenever he's not yet home i am thinking if he's drinking... when he will call that he is...i 'm getting nervous..I can't sleep unless he's home..i know, there's something wrong but i love him so much and i know he loves me ...