For the past 8 years I've been dealing with depression and for the last 2 years it's been getting progressively worse. I don't eat (I'm currently 85lbs at over 5'5''), oversleep way too much and stay in bed literally all day for weeks on end. I don't leave the house unless I have no choice (Im on disability, I dont work even though I miss doing that too). I also have 2 wonderful kids ages 7 and 12. I wish I could be there for my kids but this inhibiting condition makes that seem impossible. I force myself to get out of bed for at least an hour a day to feed the kids, shower and do light chores around the house. It's not long after just doing those simple tasks that I am exhausted and need to go lie back down until the following day.
My 12 year old helps tremendously around the house and with my 7 year old. She's growing up too fast. My kids do everything and I fear they are missing out on childhood. It's almost gotten to the point where I fear someone will report CPS. I make sure my kids have the basics and more but its a struggle to keep up with things. But the fear is still there. The kids father is not in their lives and only pays child support. He has no clue how things are only because if he did, he'd say I'm just lazy.
Things havent been this way too long either. I used to be fully employed, went to school functions, family dinners, everything.
Last I had help with these issues the kids were younger. I don't know what they think but I would like them not to know about
my depression or at least not the extent in it.
Perhaps theres something else that can be done to at least lessen these feelings
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