getting better

hi guys,

i hope everyone is doing well. i thought that i would say g'day and let you know how i am going. i am doing much much better. i am so pleased, but it hasn't come easy i have done a lot of hard work. over the years i have been very unwell, had 28 hospitalisations, many for longer than 3 months, e.c.t, inpatient program for six months, many psychiatrists over the years i have seen, psychologists and therapists as well. i had lost my partner who had passed away in 2004 in my arms and been in some very very toxic relationships as well.

but now i am happy. i have someone special in my life, finally as i grieved for my partner for six years. we all go through differently. i lost a lot of friends that year as well. it was a hard time. but i found an extrodinary therapist and psychiatrist, and i am due to see them in a couple of weeks. i have cut back on seeing my shrink, i was finally correctly dx with bpad and eupd. i did all the work with my treating professionals. i challenged myself and never surrendered. i still have my moments though but i handle them much better.

going o/s and being with my partner was the best experience of my life. and i am saving furiosly to get back. i have learnt so much about myself, about toxic people in my life and i am dealing with them much more strongly than before. i have learnt to love myself, this was hard as was learning to be happy again. i only knew sadness and i became comfortable with it. but there is far more to life. i am finally on the correct medication, this is key. as we all say on the forum it is trial and error, and you need to be fully frank with your treating professionals to get the best possible treatments and outcomes for your condition, this is what i did.

hw as been a rising force for me over the years. you guys have given me strength and motivation to continue battling on, but as you guys know i am a strong bugger and i never surrender. keep fighting guys and never ever lose sight of getting better. my vision is better. this has helped. geez i have been through a lot with this too. 2 years of laser and intra occular injections. my diabetes is stable as well. my arthritis in my neck and shoulders is giving me a hard time, but that is my lot in life. the nocturia is better and i am finally sleeping a tad better as well.

keeping busy has helped, i walk, even though i use a stick, walking clears the mind for me. it is winter thus it is a tad harder but i still perservere. music is my therapy. it soothes the savage beast. i am so happy at this time inmy life and i plan to keep it this way. i am still going to my therapist, still see my gp and still will see my psychiatrist, albeit i may not need to see him any longer. i still have my down periods but not as bad. i have learnt that i am a member of this world alike everyone else and that i deserve happiness as well.

on this happy note i say to all my hw family to never surrender. keep being strong, keep speaking to your treating professionals, fully engage in therapy, as i does work and love yourselves. thank you my dear hw buddies for always being there for me. i am always here for you. i don't post as much but i think of you all often. sorry for the long post. keep striving. and as i always say, 'slow and steady wins the race' and it certainly does. much love to all.

with healing compassion,
the happy turtle

oh thanks mate. you are a kind soul.
many blessings. with healing compassion,

the happy turtle

the happy turtle.

thanks mags. glad you posted. have missed you. know that i am here for you. i am hoping the cymbalta works for you. i am glad you found a doctor that listened to you. know that we are here for you. thanks for the lovely words. it means a real lot. keep strong sweetie.

with healing compassion,
the happy turtle.

You are such an AMAZING person. I love reading your posts and seeing how far you have come even though I don't know the whole story.

You are an inspiration to everyone and are such a positive person! Keep it up and you will get further and further in life.

Lisa

oh guys i am so touched. thank you. i love you all. keep strong. take care, you are all in my thoughts.

much love and happiness to all,
the happy turtle.

thanks. have had a bad day, but i am not going to let me get me down. i posted a little vent in the daily check in thread. thanks for all the love and positives my dear friends. many hugs 2 you all.

cheers,
the happy turtle

cheers for that. have a wonderful day.

the happy turtle.

Hey Turtle Jam

Those bad days are just a blip on the radar.

The more important thing is to (somehow, graciously) get rid of your life-suckers!! You are getting stronger every day and I know that you can do it

I am doing VERY well for last 4 days, altho effexor got me a little whacked out yesterday-it is ALLLLLL good

Love Mags

I'm very happy for you! It sounds you are beginning to control your life instead of the depression and other mental illnesses. That's such an awesome feat!

i got rid of my overstaying mate, finally!!! geez i have my house back. he was very controlling. lucky for him i am a fairly passive bloke, but i did let him have it twice. as i said no more toxicity. yay i can play my tunes again and have some privacy back, especially with him looking over my shoulder and reading my posts and e-mails. i got furious at this, real angry indeed. i can speak on the phone and not have him listen in. now i am calm. as i said to my partner i can have P.N.Q. ( peace and quietnes). i do not like being restricted in my own home. thus i am letting the toxic people know about it.

thanks for listening,
much harmony and peace to all,
the happy turtle.

thank you karen.

the happy turtle.

cheers mate.
the happy turtle.