Posted 10/13/2013 10:56 PM (GMT 0)
Hello everyone,
My depression started about 4 years ago upon my parent's divorce and financial trouble that almost led to me losing my house. We would go week to week wondering if I still could attend college and whether or not we could buy groceries, it was horrible. Then slowly our financial troubles began to diminish as we got back on our feet, but then one year later I got hit with an un-diagnosed injury/sickness that kept me out of college and work. This has been going on for 2 years, several doctors/tests, and has made me a basket case. I began to push everyone away because of being stressed/disappointed including my girlfriend and family. I just really was giving up and did not want to take my girlfriend of 5 years down that path of destruction, so I just wanted a break to not hurt her. Now during this current year, my positivity has gotten better (still sick but working on it), but my girlfriend recently lost both her grandparents, her house, and is out of college. This then led to her ignoring me so she can sort her life out and focus on family/school. I love my girlfriend with all my heart and the only reason I pushed her away was to save her from that period of depression I was going through. Now that she won't talk to me I wonder if I ruined my chances with her for good because of my past actions or if she is now going through the same stages of pain that I went through? How do I deal with this situation? Thank you all and God bless!