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Posted 10/21/2013 12:18 AM (GMT 0)
There are a few times in the year where my mind starts to take control. I'll be doing something normal and fine and then all of the sudden I will start wishing I wa****** or having "bad" thoughts. I know that it's not me, or even how I feel but none the less it's all I can think about.

Luckily, I've started to meditate and do yoga and tai chi. All of these allow me to reconnect myself with my thoughts and for the most part take back control.

It's hard though, functioning with little awareness of my mental illness (I'm medicated and have a wonderful team) and then all of the sudden it's like all the work has been for nothing.

Post Edited By Moderator (BnotAfraid) : 10/21/2013 3:47:24 AM (GMT-6)

Posted 10/21/2013 9:49 AM (GMT 0)
skyyoung,

this is called the "rollcoaster ride" and is common in depression.

I see you have some wonderful skills and are using them, that is good hard work. Keep it up. The skills will be become easier to use it time goes by.

Peace
Trina
Posted 10/21/2013 11:57 PM (GMT 0)
Could be Seasonal disorder and counseling can be very helpful...this is a real illness! caused by the changing of the seasons...Make sure to talk to your couselor about this, light therapy might help!
Posted 10/22/2013 1:01 AM (GMT 0)
This happens to me through out the year. I will be trying to convince myself that things are going
to get better, and then suddenly I will have very low thoughts and feel like things are not going to get better (I also tend to have worse depression in the fall/winter, but I have worse anxiety in the spring/summer). I'm sorry to hear you are going through this, those low thoughts can be awful to have to deal with. That is good though that you have some activities you enjoy that can take your mind off of things you are dealing with.
Posted 10/22/2013 3:54 AM (GMT 0)
I experience it, too. October is tough. It's my birthday and the death of a very loved grandfather all in one day. It's hard because of the way our minds point to negative.

I try to prepare myself. Stock up on books or activities I can do with the kids. I plan on things to keep my mind occupied. I stay busy so I don't get caught up in the downward slope of my roller coaster. That makes it sound easy. It's not. We have to fight through what many take for granted. It's hard but everyday you do it then it's one less day for feeling down and out.
Posted 10/22/2013 8:37 AM (GMT 0)
My birthday falls on November 22nd, that is the day President Kennedy got shot. This year it is 50 years for him. 55 for me. But there will be a big deal on his death and it is so depressing for me. I guess as long as I don't watch tv I will be okay... But kind of takes the wind out of my sails...

Hugs, Karen...
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