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Posted 10/22/2013 3:09 AM (GMT 0)
I am a frequent visitor of the "anxiety" room but tonight I felt I should be here.


I don't know what's wrong but I feel like I want to be locked in my house forever. Like everything is the same with me, I feel like this is my destiny or something because, no matter what I do, things never change. It's sad, it's depressing, I feel pathetic.

I've tried, I swear to God I've tried, but everyday life shows me how things get better for other people but not for me. I'm talking about a particular thing but I'm not going to say what it is. I feel like I should just accept my life once and for all and stop looking for answers. It gets better for them, for other people and not for me. I'm not being pessimistic, I'm telling the truth. I know not everything is wrong and I know I still can do things, but this, what I'm talking about, is very important for me and I feel like it's never going to be fine. And I'm tired of trying.

I am repeating the same things so I'm going to stop here. I 'm not even asking for any advice, I just wanted to say how I feel and how sick I am of everything.
Posted 10/22/2013 3:50 AM (GMT 0)
You're not alone. I feel the same way. Then I try to think about what I've done today. Yes, sometimes it's no more than I got up, fed the kids, got them off to school in season appropriate clothing ( not always an easy feat), and showered. It may not seem like much but there was a time that I was so loaded down with stress and anxiety that I never wanted to get our of bed.

Taking things as they come has made it easier for me to see the good in day to day life. I have hobbies and pets and kids. I've got a lot to be grateful for. It's not always easy, though. I have stumbling blocks. I just try to do better the next day.

I don't know what your one thing is but I have a couple of one things. I'm trying to accept that some things just aren't meant to be. It sucks. It makes me want to give up some days. Instead, I try to find other activities or goals that are accomplish able and fulfilling. I think I've mentioned that I do lots of volunteer work with the local animal shelter and nursing homes. Some times we just have to rethink our lives.
Posted 10/22/2013 8:35 AM (GMT 0)
They say we often take for granted things that others wish that they even had. It is always darkest before the dawn. And when you don't know what to do, don't do anything. Also, one day at a time. Sometimes we have to slow ourselves down and think of the positives in our lives. Even if they are really small. They are something... And it is our attitude most of the time that gets us through, stay positive. Look for one positive thing in your life each day. One isn't a lot, but it sure makes a difference when you think about it.

I hope you feel better soon. Do keep posting. it helps to sort things out. Keep hanging in there and try to think of that one thing everyday... You will get there and you will feel better. A problem shared is a problem halved.

I am full of all kinds of sayings this morning, but I can't come up with one idea on my own... Too early and not enough coffee yet. Like I say, keep posting...

Hugs, Karen...
Posted 10/23/2013 8:52 AM (GMT 0)
Hi. I also post in the anxiety forum a lot, but am here every once in a while as well. I can relate to what you are saying. I have felt for years like everyone around me seems to always be better off, and I have
wondered why I can't be happy and move on from depression and anxiety, so I often feel very hopeless at times and at a loss as far as what to do. I have thought at times that it might be this way forever as well, and i've also tried a lot to try to turn things around with no success. I was actually really depressed the other day and thought to myself "i'm really tired of trying when nothing ever works out." I think that sometimes overcoming depression, anxiety, or any other problem just takes time. Sometimes I guess that we don't always know what the solution is right away, and it takes time to figure that out. It's frustrating to feel depressed and also feel like you can't do anything about it at the same time, but I still think, no matter how difficult things get, that it's important to remember that no matter how bad things may seem,there is always a way to make the future better, even if the past or present hasn't been very good.
Posted 10/24/2013 2:41 PM (GMT 0)
WM,

Thanks for popping in and posting. It takes time to get the right mindset, but practice makes perfect. I guess I lower my expectations in life so that the little things have more meaning. I find it makes things easier that way... I take life one day at a time, and stay in the moment. That takes practice too. But if you get it into your mind, you are on your way there. Our attitude makes a big difference in our healing journey, and all of us are on one.

Keep hanging in there. When things get to be too much, take a little break and restore yourself.

You are doing good, continue the good work...

Hugs, Karen...
Posted 10/24/2013 9:17 PM (GMT 0)
You are welcome. Keep on keeping on...

Hugs, Karen...
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