Posted 11/5/2013 6:41 PM (GMT 0)
Hello first time posting here. I just want to share how I feel and see if anyone else feels the same and what you have done about it.
I'm 24 and was diagnosed with depression when I was 18. Often I feel a complete and utter hopelessness in regards to life and earth and existence. I feel like to live and love is just setting yourself up for pain and sadness and nothing good can overcompensate for this bad. When I feel this way it seems like there is no way out. This feeling is made worse by painful events for example a breakup. Recently my very close uncle passed away suddenly and now I feel this way and it feels like it will never go away.
Also now I'm terrified of the idea that more people I love will die and feel that I will have to feel this for the rest of my life until I'm finally freed by my own death.
I know this is dark and I try to change the way I think but all I can really ever do is try to distract my self from these thoughts, which does not work.
Here's hoping someone can help or at least see this and know they are not the only ones who feel this way about this life we live.