Hi all,
I wanted to share a little of my day, and some of my inner 'conflict'.
There seems to be more than a limited amount of angles to express how one might be feeling, which might fit better than words I have used in the past.
Had a day at work today, tired because I spend quite a lot of time on the computer in the evenings, and I stay up quite late sometimes.
Work has slowed down = time to think and tackle some issues at 'the workplace' which I might have put off tackling whilst busy. So I've spent a lot of the day reading a document, since not so busy, (not tackled those issues yet). Not nearly as active as I usually am, and it does make me feel a bit tired, plus with the things that go on in my head, a lot of worry about this that and the other, the past, mistakes, or things that went wrong.
Spending time 'thinking' about asking someone something, rather than asking straight out, because I'm worried about the response, mind you though, I probably still ask more questions than some.
People I feel confortable with, I ask a lot.
So some things which bother me. My nervousness sometimes, the thinking about past mistakes/things I've done wrong. My worry about how other people feel about me, my influence on other people (especially in sensitive settings)
Had an appointment this afternoon, I had gone a month and had worked myself up to it abit, though I didn't do all of the homework I could have done, I did some of it, and the coffee intake, which I should have reduced, I haven't so much. Then I received a message today, to say appointment had been cancelled :o It didn't throw me off balance that much, because I already had it in my head that I wasn't going to be best useful in this situation....but it has been a long time and I wonder if I should book another....which I could, I rang and checked and could get one for next week.
So...instead, as I had realised earlier, it's my college class night, so I was able to attend the full time of the class as usual.
I'd like to say, it is a good way for me to have time out, even though it is learning, it gives me some healthy competition, and feeds the inner senses in a positive way.
Best Wishes all
Post Edited (HappyBean) : 11/27/2013 2:42:08 PM (GMT-7)