been very sick

That's great that you got some restful sleep! Sounds like your body got as much sleep as it wanted. Hoping that you have another good night!

Hey Jamie,

I am glad you got some sleep. Now where is my email???

Hugs, Karen...

I am glad you chatted with Irene, she sounds like a nice lady. Have a good sleep Jamie and an awesome day tomorrow...

Luv and hugs, Karen...

Thanks Jamie, You too!!!

Thinking of you Jamie, slow and steady remember...

It will get better I am sure... Just takes time...

Luv and hugs, Karen...

yep it is burning and i was only asleep half an hour. it is hot here. the hot weather is upon us. i am drinking plenty of fluids and trying my best to burp. i am so tired, and so tired of this and everything. somebody please put me out of my misery!!! if i was a horse i'd be put down. oh well. expletive this!!! i have a stack of appts coming up, starting tomorrow, this will be fun, not!!! i keep asking myself why do i deserve all of this??? come on, somebody cut me some slack. i need at least this sorted. i can deal with the nocturia, i am even tricking my bladder by dosing up on water when it starts so i can fully empty. still going a lot but not dribbling or straining and going back every two minutes.

sorry having a vent. i bloody need one guys. i am beyond the end of my rope, i am running purely on addrenalin. i am having panic attacks at night with this pain. i am very fearful that if i try and sleep that i am going to die. especially when i am that short of breath it becomes very scarey indeed. oh expletive it!!! i can't keep doing this, i can't i will break and when i do i will just shatter. i don't like using the h word but i do hate all of this. i asked my doc awhile ago why all of this, why me? he looked at me straight in my eyes and said 'because you can handle it'. i nearly punched out!!! i think i need a few stiff drinks. i see my psychiatrist tomorrow, this will be interesting when i tell him the above. he will probably think i am a big baby. well time for more water. to add insult to injury today i had a big hypo because i could not eat, great. so what is next a liquid diet??!!! rant rant jamie, that is all you are doing, but it is cathartic. well i best be off. see you soon my hw buddies. i guess i just need a bit of support at this time. thanks for listening. and caring.

Jamie, I'm sooo sorry.
I hope things will get better for you soon. We're here for you.

UA

Hey Jamie,

I see you are still up, I hope that you feel better and get some sleep.

Hugs, Karen...

Nexium is good. I took it for a while. I don't know if they offer it over that but it's worth asking about. I hope you get relief soon.

hi guys, bloody hot here. i am so short of breath it aint funny. i was fortunate my sis took me to my shrink appointment, albeit walking from the car into the practice and only a short distance practically killed me. even my shrink could see i was struggling. i hung my clothes on the line and that killed me as well. i have to sit and rest and drink cold water after each activity. i walked next door to see my neighbour, she put some iodine on my diabetic sore on my leg because it is ulcerated. i use aqueous cream but it just does not have the chop. not cutting the mustard so to speak. just going next door was murder i was hanging on to her letter box for a few minutes before i went in.

i am going o/s later in the year. i really need this sorted out as soon as possible. the gastro dr. is back monday, i will be phoning first thing. also monday i have my therapist and i need to go to the hospital pharmacy to pick up some lamictal. i am ever so grateful to my sis at this time as she is running around for me. i am very good to her also. it is slowly cooling down, phew. tomorrow is shopping day, irene and i are going out early to beat the heat. i will be totally wrecked after bringing all the shopping in and then putting it away!!! expletive me!! somebody shoot me!!!

my shrink is amazed at how well i am mentally considering everything that is going on. this was nice to hear from him. he said to focus on my trip, i said yeah i am but i have to be realistic and focus on this to. if i don't i won't be allowed to fly. my partner would be beside herself if i said i could not fly. i said to my shrink i am taking it all one day at a time. but i really need this sorted as soon as possible. i will tell the gastric staff that i am very unwell and need an urgent appointment. geez i am feeling old. this is taking a big toll on me. oh well, just keep pushing. maybe if i keep pushing this hard i will be pushing up daisies!!! what to do, what to do.

this is when i need a smoke.................
way too much stress, not with just this stuff, not just 2013 but going back a long time. this is why i play my tunes. it is my de-stress coping skill. life isn't meant to be that easy but expletive it aint meant to be this bloody hard either. now for my last bit i will just quote my mantra 'slow and steady wins the race'. i just wish the doctors would get their you know what together. see ya soon. thanks for listening to my rubbish.

thx karen. am having massive panic attacks. when the acid plays up and the burning begins i get very short of breath. and it happens when i do little activities like shopping today and doing my laundry and even dishes. when it comes to having a kip i freak out and think i am going to die. i get into a massive panic. i had 2 kips this afternoon, i fell asleep but awoke in panic both times. going to bed at night scares the hell out of me. shrink will not give me any sedatives. i just need all of this expletive stuff sorted. i am freaking out. booooooo.

thx 4 listening. ps very hot here and i can't sleep when it is. i can't win. shoot me.

Hang in there mate...

Hugs, Karen...

I hope you get an app soon Jamie. Rest up. I hope you'll feel better.

UA