Daily Check In Thread For All!!! #66

Hi All,

Stopping by to say hello :) Trina, I'm sorry about the buyer backing out :( Hope you are doing ok, hope everything that you need to be sorted works out. Best Wishes.

UA, I hope that you are feeling better soon!

Best Wishes to everyone.

I am writing to let you know that I am getting on well. Thank you all for the support you have given me in the past.

I'm getting into some good habits this year.

Trina, Thanks for starting a new thread. I posted the 100th post on the other one and didn't even realize. Sorry...

I am also sorry that the buyers backed out, but there will be most likely other buyers. I hope one finds you soon.

It is presently 2 degrees here. Will get colder tonight, but suppose to start warming up tomorrow.

Hugs, Karen...

Afternoon all,

Well today has been an odd day, feeling kind of off. No sun shine will do that I guess.
I will be doing dinner for ys soon so my son will go to bed at a decent hour tonight.

I have smoked today and I hate that I did but I will stop again. I know the first 3days will be the hardest but I know I can do it.

I will be journaling my progress that will make it easier for me I know.

Its cold here in California I have been cold all day and I hate that. Well more before I go to bed.

Bnot I am sorry your house deal fell through. Soon someone will buy your house and not back out I am sure of it.

MissJD: Hope you'll feel better. Maybe the weather makes you feel different.

Myself: Congrats on the new job!

AV: Glad you're feeling better after sending you mom that message. Sometimes we have to rid the negativity in our lives.

Glad you're doing well HB.

Trina: Sorry the buyer backed out last minute. I hope you will get another buyer soon.

Thank you MissJD, Karen, Rob, Carl and everyone else for you support and concern. I really don't know why I feel so sad and depressed. It seems like my depression is taking over again. Things are actually good with the bf for a change. No quarrels for the last week which is quite abnormal with us. Things are okay with my mom too. She did ask again about the fight but I told her that my bf and I are okay now and moving forward after discussing it. We didn't discuss it though, just a very brief talk.

I think I'm just going through a phase. I'm just tired and frustrated. Work is not helping. Presently, I wish I could resign. But I can’t especially since I have my big car loan to pay. Can you believe I use to love my job? I leave home in the dark to reach on time, and I reach home in the dark. When I come home, I still do work. Once I power on my laptop, I automatically start doing things for work and I have no idea why. At work, I do my work. Then at home, I do stuff for work. I use it as a distraction but I’m beginning to think it’s causing me more frustration. I just don’t have the energy or feeling to do anything or go anywhere. Going to work is a very tedious task for me now.

I'm sooo frustrated I'm on the verge of breaking down at work. I know my co-workers are noticing because recently they keep asking if I'm okay. I try to be tough and strong but once I reach home the tears starts

I'm realizing that my father is gone. I don't think reality has hit me yet. I think it's now coming on. I was accustom with him being in and out of the hospital often, I sometimes feel that he will come home soon, but then I realizes he's gone and it hits me hard.

Feeling depressed makes me feel sick too. There's sunshine here, I'm cold. My fingers and toes are soo cold I wear my socks and sweater when everyone else is hot and sweating.

Sorry for the long vent... I guess it's just a phase that will take some time to pass.

Thanks

UA

my healing prayers to all. just taking it easy. yesterday was a busy day. had excruciating burning last night and nocturia as well. gastro clinic not open till the 13th, boo. soldier on. i can't bend or lift without burning, boo again. oh well expletive happens. just playing tunes. buttons was naughty and done business inside and the front door was open, was not happy. she is gettin lazy in her old age. take care guys.

Jamie, I really hope today is good.

MissJD, you must be worried about your dad. Pneumonia is never good.

It's another long night of no sleep for me. My brain just won't shut off. Plus a friend started texting me. I feel so bad for him. He's been making wonderful progress in getting sober and has changed so much. People can be so cruel and he's really feeling that right now. He's a good guy who made mistakes. I just hope he's able to quit feeling worthless. Anyway, guess I'm going to read for a while, maybe that will calm my mind.

Hi all-

UA- I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Miss-hang in there with the quitting! You can do this!

AV- sorry about the sleepless nights....hope they get better...

Myself- have fun at the job today.

Trina- sorry about the house. Something positive will happen.

JB- how are you?

Rob- hope you are doing well.

Carl- I have a toxic mother myself. She's not in my life anymore. Many emotions about it. Good to see you post.

I have a very challenging day ahead at work today. I'm praying for peace.

Things on the home front are ok. He's found a place to live and will start moving his things. I'm doing ok although I'm ready for him to leave so I can truly start to heal. I know we made the right decision about divorcing...just ready for it to be done. He's going to file sometime next week.

Wish me strength and peace today at work.

My love to all-
Michele

Good morning all .......

   A late start today - but it's another cold one .... -6 degrees this morning at 9am but with little wind , so the wind chill must be around -10 or so at the most.

   Gizmo really wanted to go for a ride today - but for the third day in a row, no dogs or people walking out there. The man across the street was shoveling out a small area of snow in the cul-de-sac circle this morning - so his Border Collie would have somewhere to pee and poop ... what fun!!!!!

   Trina ..... sorry about the frustration of that failed buyer. With all the work you and your husband have done on the house prepping, I feel for you. I went thru that prepping process myself for two months last summer and it can be exhausting - along with caring for your own home. My understanding is that November into January are likely the slowest months in the market normally - so soon, the market activity should improve. Hope so .... then maybe you can add a fireplace to your house!!!!! Hmmmm - nice for next Winter.

   Michele ..... you're sounding pretty positive. Keep it going - and strength and peace will find you.

   MissJD ..... keep the attitude going with those cigs!!!

   JB1 ...... hows the treadmill .... 40-minutes running/walking was great when you last wrote about it.

   Myself ..... hope 2014 finds more opportunity in good jobs for you.

   Karen ........ get some more rest ..... and maybe a pizza!!!!

   AV ....... it must be warmer by you today ...... lucky one!

   UA ....... I'de like to challenge you! I think it's time you wrote a longer post. It really does sound like you've got what I used to get when I worked for others. You know - leaving for work when it's dark - then getting home when it's dark! Hopefully, at work, you have some kind of windows so that you can see what weekday daylight actually looks like. It is a depressing thing to think about. No - it's just depressing to live thru daily.

   Is there maybe a new boss or a new employee at work that's getting on your nerves? Hey - it happens!!! Is there road construction going on - on your route into work? That can make driving into work miserable. Feel free to let it out! That's what we're here for!

   And Myself had a good point. Leave the laptop at work - OR - play some solitaire - OR - write to us. Just leave work at work!@!!! Hey - do you have any hobbies you used to do - but don't anymore - and wonder why not? Play a little .... have some unwork fun ..... have a good cry - then smile!!!

   You deserve it!~!!!

Have a good mid-week.

Rob & Gizmo

 

That was quite a post Rob,

I was a caregiver to my first husband who died of lung cancer. It is a hard way to go. But I wouldn't change it for the world. Things came easy because I knew I was doing the best that I could to make the transition easier for my first husband. I think that the hardest part is after they leave. Especially if you don't have someone to help you through. That will hopefully not be that way for Sally as I hope she has a lot of support. Grief counseling is highly advised.

Thanks for sharing. You are a good person. Remember that...

Hugs, Karen...

it will trina. now keep bloody warm and rug up!!!! see ya soon.

Hello everyone

I am tired again today. I am so tired of being tired, lol

My monthly is very bad this month its causing me to be tired and hungry but not hungry.

I am still worried about my dad, he seems to be doing okay but the x ray will be a for sure thing.

Everyone else here is good but dad is still sick and that worries me.

We are having an h1n1 pandemic according to Sacrament. I hope no one gets it.

Well I am feeling a little tured so I will sign off for now.

Myself, I hope that note cheered you up a bit. At least she sounded like she care. I hope your BP will go down. Please don't stress too much. Rest up. Monitor it and keep us updated.

MissJD: Hope your dad will be okay and you will feel better too.

Rob: that's a very nice post. It's very touching as well. My mother took a lot of care for my father since his dx. It's is truly a job but it's a nice thing they do.

Michele: Hope you were able to get through the day okay.

Rob, Myself, Trina: No work troubles. So I don't think that's it. There are negative people as with all workplaces but I keep my distance from them. My bosses are great. They are always understanding and supportive. There's always traffic to and from work since the last 4 years.
Usually, I have to log on home to complete one task for work until all the stores closes. It takes about 5-10 minutes for the most. Me doing work is like a reflex action or maybe a bad habit. As you all said, I'll have to find a way to cut it out.
Yes Rob, I use to have hobbies. But as you know depression takes that away from it. I guess I will have to try to take it back.
I'm counting down the days we have remaining before the weekend comes. I really can't wait for it.

JB: I took 2 week off after dad's death. My bosses were nice and they didn't deduct any pay or any vacation days. I have vacation days left which I'm schedule to take in July. I've been thinking if I should take it now but I really don't want to use all my days up now. Maybe I should take at least one day in between the weeks.

Thanks for you support everyone

Hope everyone has a good night!

UA