Daily Check In Thread For All!!! #69

Hey Char, Hey AV,

I hope you both feel better soon. Post when you can, we understand. Sending good vibes both of your ways...

Hugs, Karen...

MissJD ......

   Garth .... the 98-pound werewolf?

   Hey - where did he get his werewolf chick?

   Not long ago, Garth was getting interested in that bubblehead that put a spell on Sammy way back in Las Vegas! What happened to her?

   I never pictured Garth as a lady's man!!!!!!!

   Whatever happened to Crowley? ...... and Abbadon?

   So ....... the brothers are back together again ...... but - Sammy doesn't know about the mark on Dean!

Note - the above is just between Supernatural junkies!

 

 

Good morning all!!!

It is still cold here but suppose to get up to 15 today and 25 tomorrow. Heat wave I guess...

I hope everybody is having a good day today. I know for some it could be better, but hang in there, it will be...

Hugs, Karen...

AV many prayers for you...
I'm still having a hard time of it and having a harder time getting sleep...

Hi Rob, thank you for your post, I understand what you are saying, it just dawned on me how financially difficult it can be to afford healthcare for people in different countries.

I will try and have a good weekend, a long one as it happens this week :) and I do often enjoy some of the weekend, so it's a lot less challenging than I make out.

Myself, I hope you are starting to feel better! Hope you feel better soon.

AV, I read that you weren't feeling so good recently, I do hope that things inprove for you soon too!

Best wishes to everyone, I hope your days are going well. :)

Post Edited (HappyBean) : 1/29/2014 3:12:06 PM (GMT-7)

Rob-

In 1994, my father passes. Heart attack and died on the way to the hospital in an ambulance.

My sister was on the phone with his insurance for almost a year. They kept sending bills for the ambulance, since it had not been pre-approved.

It turned out that a pencil pusher, in the days before the internet, had mistakenly coded his account as active, living. Once someone finally understood he had died during the ambulance ride in question, the charges were dropped.

-sigh-

Hi,

Not sure how this works. Thought I'd try something different . I recognize I am depressed . I am on medication , have done a ton of therapy , but still feel alone and what's coming up now is feeling useless . Was working in a job recently that I loved but got into a dispute with the manager and was suspended . I have been asked to leave and I am getting benefits and worked something out with my employer so that I won't be stigmatized but feel sad about the whole situation . I was going to leave anyway because I got injured and kept getting re- injured but it's different when you are forced to leave . I feel that I have my put my heart and soul into this job and the company but no one defended me. I don't get it .

This keeps happening in my life . I get involved in something do very well but have a disagreement or misunderstanding and walk out , become the scapegoat or lose friends . I am trying to set boundaries but I guess I go to the extreme and say something or do something that I'm not proud of . Anyway helps to write this out as I am seeing a pattern.

I know why I do this . I am really afraid of intimacy . I have friends but I'm afraid to reveal too much of myself . It's weird I appear popular and confident but inside I feel alone and terrified . I know my childhood has everything to do with this , I was abused sexually , emotionally and physically , was married to a very abusive drug addict alcoholic. On the outside we looked like the perfect couple but it was insane . I got help during the marriage and have been divorced now 7 years but still hurt from it . I got involved with some crazy men but now am in a stable relationship and engaged . I'm still terrified of being hurt .

I was diagnosed with PTSD , anxiety , and depression and really try to get out of myself but sometimes it's so hard . Lately after the job incident part of me says what's the point in trying anymore but I know I need to keep trying just tired .

I have a lot people depending on me . I have two adult children and one minor living with me now along with my two grandsons . My son has has a lot of health issues and is better now but had to be sent home from college a few years back and I have really tried to be there for him . My oldest is going through marital issues and had to come home to work on herself with her two little boys . My youngest has an eating disorder . They all have issues with their father who is very pathological and continues to hurt them emotionally .

Anyway feel so overwhelmed at times , frightened because I feel I have to be strong so I hide my pain . My fiancé knows my struggles but we can't get married till he works on his financial situation and my youngest graduates . I also don't like to burden him so I put on a brave face .

I am going back to train for same line of work but a different angle of it that won't have me injured and will be doing a lot of studying and observation for this so I will be very busy in a week but tonight having a hard time , saw this site and thought what the heck . Anyway just thought I'd get this out of me .

Brwneyedgirl- I am glad that you know when you need help. I am the same way with emotion. I feel I cant express them, but if you do not express them then they only become worse.

I am sorry for your trauma through the years that is so unfair. I am glad that you wereable to stay on the good side of things and that shows your strength.

I would say that if you do not feel safe expressing yourself to loved ones then please come here and express yourself, we are all here for eachother and will be here for you just the same. All of these guys are awesome.

Good morning all ....

   It's all the way up to 25-degrees this morning at 7am. Gizzy and I went for a short ride, but it was too early I guess for the dog walkers to be out. I have a catscan this morning - so I'm earlier than normal with everything.

   Myself ....... human error is human error - but you would think there would be some checks and balances to rectify that error in much less than a years time.

   MissJD ....... it sounds like this week-end is going to be a tough one. I'm OK with my recent loss - really! Like I said somewhere before - and maybe that was in a support group - when you watch a loved one die a little nearly every time you see them over three years or more, it ends up being a relief when she's finally gone.

   Brwneyedgirl ....... welcome - and I'll start a thread for you. This way, it will be much easier for everyone to respond to you - and visa-versa!

   JB1 ....... (Myself also) ........ medical insurance is expensive for a lot of people. I was forced into retirement (health) just before Obamacare - and my medical insurance was costing me just over $800. per month and that was with a $5000. deductible. Having cancer bumped it that high .... but it was my single most expensive cost in my own business - and I could not even afford liability insurance coverage .... so with one lawsuit I could have lost everything! It is a pathetic state of being in this country. Obamacare didn't solve it~!!!!

   Karen ........ should be much warmer today up by you!

Peace and wellness

Rob & Gizmo

 

Hi All-

I hope everyone is warm today.

Well, I had counseling this morning and I just don't know what is wrong with me. I sat there and cried like a baby. I think this morning, I was just overwhelmed by everything going on in my life. I am trying so hard to face everything head on but today, I am tired of being positive. I am just exhausted.

And to top if off, I haven't heard from the hospital on how much my part of my MRI will be so I called the hospital. After, no joke, 5 phone calls and 5 different people, they found me in the system but still can't tell me how much my part will be. If it is over a couple hundred of dollars, I can't pay it. And, yes, I know I can't afford not to have it done but money is tight with the divorce. I am saving every penny I can to pay off some bills. So, not sure how this drama is going to play out.

My counselor said to honor these bad moments, knowing that good moments will follow. I know they will..... just wish I was feeling better today....

My love to all-
Michele

Glad weather and stuff is better.

I don't get the whole abuser thing. As a kid I asked my mother how she could stay with someone who beat me every night of my life from age 13 months. She always said if get it when I grew up. I didn't.

Everything here is pretty much still crapsville. My ex husband got custody of my kids. The judge said he was more financially able to provide for the kids. That same night I got served with divorce papers. Everyday that my kids have been with him I have gotten crying phone calls about how they want to come home. I feel like a failure for letting this happen to them. I can't sleep because of panic attacks. I've got no appetite. I've got no will to do anything. I did see my dr. He said that anyone would feel bad in my situation and that medications won't help. My OCD is at new heights. Then my mother and sister decided to play dogpile yesterday. That business is still going on. I'm second guessing myself. I'm exhausted and I worry I'm not making good decisions.

Well, anyway, that's the fun at casa de Victory. Always something new, like a very unwanted roller coaster ride. I'm more than ready for it to end. I'm so tired of all of the stupid drama and struggling. I've been on a netflix marathon since my kids left. I'll probably be all caught up on supernatural by tomorrow. Hope you are all ok. I'm being a sucky person and I'm sorry.

It sounds like you can't help this situation. So don't think of yourself as a failure and don't beat yourself up.


as HB said, you will be there for them, and have a good influence on them. They love you and that is all that matters.

Hang in there.

Hugs, Karen...